posted on Aug, 8 2008 @ 04:27 AM
Thanks to ATS to give me the possibility of speaking and maybe of finding a solution.
I live with a man since years 17. We have a 4-year-old girl. We met then after three months, we lived together. We always say that at the beginning it
is best but in my case, in no way. I was unfortunate but I did not dare to say it to my parents, then I stayed. I was unfortunate because he was and
is always indifferent and very hard. He is kind, it is a good father but with me, I have the impression to make party of the furniture of the house
for a long time. Never of kisses, compliments, encouragements... In 17 years, he said to me only once " I love you ". Never of presents, unforesee
releases and no sex, he doesn't like it. Not many.
I am told that I am attractive, but he never. If I he say " you love me? ", he answers " and you? ", if I say you don't love to me, him answer "
you either ". Here we are, it is my life, I do not see any more my family, our friends are common thus I can speak to nobody, then, I do not know
what to make. When I say by joking, " I am going to leave ", he says " you will see hardly your daughter ", that I have to make?
Is there anybody who is in the same situation as me? If I leave with my daughter, he will be sad because he loves her and it is a good father, but I
cannot leave only, it would be terrible for me. And if I leave, I should leave far, because I could not begin again my life in my city. We are bound
by our daughter, our house, our work, we always worked together. I have stopped to work for 4 years to occupy me of my daughter, and I try to find
an employment independent from him but it is not easy. I do not know what to make, to live in the indifference it is the worse than everything. I do
not love him any more for a long time but I do not want to hurt him. If I wait that my daughter is an adult, it will be too late for me later. I go
out 1 - 2 times a week from my home, I do not see almost any more our friends,I withdraw on me even a little more every day;
If you have testimonies has to bring me, thank you.