posted on Jul, 22 2008 @ 12:24 AM
I don't want to know, and I think that was the original design. Now, with modern medicine we are given time frames, but even those are sometimes
I don't want my doctor telling me I am going to die, and I don't think they should tell their patients that unless they ask to know.
My doctor could tell me I have two years, and I could be hit by that car on the way home.
I don't even like knowing I have a doctor's appointment months from now.
I wouldn't want to change how I live because of a pressure to do so. I don't want to change how I live, because I want to find that out by living
it. If I was going to die in two weeks, I would still want to sleep in, get up and have my coffee, and leisurely walk to my computer and read ATS
until my daughter woke up. If I knew, I would be rushing around trying to do everything I wouldn't have done otherwise. I think the living is in the
comfortable zone of doing things at your own pace. Ideas for living come out of daily living. I spend time on my patio, and I think what would make my
patio better? So I envision it, it takes time, I decide I want plants, I figure out what kind, I go to the nursery and enjoyably talk to the owner
about plants, I bring them home and leisurely plant them in the yard. Would I have done all that if I knew I was going to die? No. Who cares if my
patio looks nice? I won't be here to enjoy it. I wouldn't have talked to the nursery lady. I probably wouldn't be sitting on my patio. I would be
getting everything ready. For what? If I love people, they should already know, cuz I tell them. I show them.
I already know how I want to live my life, because I am doing it. Day by day. Do I want to change how I live my life, yes. Do I have things I still
want to do, yes. I think even 97 year olds still have things they would like to do.