posted on Jan, 11 2008 @ 02:10 PM
I have been thinking todays at many of ATS don't want this "Worldwide diplomacy with E.T". Many of you want keep E.T just E.T and nothing more.
Sometimes i have been thinking at this is wrong forum to ask help to this kind big thing what i would want and others too, where everyone together
working its own way like cooperate. Yes, even those who giving helping hand to those who can't help themselves, do not do thing done alone.
There have been meetings "Disclosure project", somekind other ufo meetings, but we didn't cooperate with others even after these. We wait and wait
and wait. I can't work with this thing if i just working alone, i can't do it alone so im not going to start working alone. Everyone just want
discuss and discuss but most of you do not want help get this thing be more than just threads. First time when i was this helpless feeling, i
sometimes thinked about suicide, many of people have done suicide because of this because they feel at noone want help with you get this thing done so
they suicide because they don't like live like this kind planet anymore, mostly its because of people, i feeled same kind way too because of people,
people who don't want see anything, they are just silent eyes. Thing what we do done is this at we can make "Worldwide diplomacy with E.T". Now i
haven't anymore thinked about suicide, because i have become little stronger to keep on. I talked about my first time, there i was minotaur labyrinth
where i am now too. I can't find solution what to do, but im now stronger so do not fear at im going to do it, im not doing it because i want help
with you who want this thing get done.
I found solution about 4-6 years ago why people are like that . When i trained energy feeling ability to that level at i feeled people energy around
me. I talked about that "Pain of fear and suffer" energy feeling, that was why i know now why people are like that. That time i stopped thinking
suicide, that time i knew at i need to help because im stronger to be against it so i wanted help the weaklings who can't help themselves because
they are so vulnerable. I still just and just cry almost everyday because of this energy feeling what i feel from people, even if im not close at
people, its allready in my mind how it feels. Sometimes i ask myself, "Am i really alone with this thing". If i try alone help population to become
stronger, people just ignore me and i become hated, that's why im not trying help alone this Worlwide diplomacy with E.T people become real than this
is just here in this thread.
You don't maybe understand what im talking about, but if you were me, you could understand. I have my own history here earth like you have your own.
When i sometimes become sad about this thing or just and just cry, some first words what i sing sometimes from some song what i really don't know,
words just coming out, words what coming out is somekind this.
I fly away from here, someday i meet you from other galaxies.....sometimes i sing that song from that galaxies thing......I meet other races from
galaxies. I usually sing this song when i looking myself from mirror to my eyes. Usually those first words are same what i writed there. Sometimes
its...I fly away from here someday. Those are feelings what coming out, no alien language or alien songs, just feelings what coming out with song.
I talked little about me so you know something about me. I will tell some other time when i can tell more about what i feel to this, because telling
from my feelings from how i feel to this E.T thing is taking much energy and its so sad story so it makes me really hard cry but i try keep most of
sadness inside me but it still try make my eyes make water so i take some break now and continue after that this because that feeling from people
coming inside me and trying take place in me, so i freeze down my mind - Cooling mind - so i can continue better from here.
I continue after break this. So its now bye.