My sister, my sister what have you done? I'm trying to forgive you, but I've only just begun. Forgiveness should be easy I know this is true, but you've wronged me in so many ways, what else can I do?

I feel heartless against you, you cold hearted bitch! You lied and you cheated...you jumped off a cliff. Maybe your trials were too much to bear? You weak willed woman, ah such despair!

You've all but killed our mother...it's like she's not even there, so I ask you again...How should You fare? To hell with you, I hate you! Don't enter my thoughts again you cold hearted sister! Ah such despair!

As I float down, . . . from the top of the cliff,
I hear you my sister, through the wind and a lift,
that takes me back over, our days in the past,
when I treated you badly and lived much too fast,
. . .for family.

Some are born weak, some of you strong,
I always meant well, but it always went wrong,
I'm sorry about mother and leaving like this,
. .I think I see peace, . . way down in the mist.

Be strong like always, despair does not become you my sister.

Wow That was a great addition. Thank you so much Siege. I needed that so I can begin to forgive my sister. The cliff, it's a metaphor. I'll just leave it at that

My brother and I are the last two standing that haven't forgave her yet.

[edit on 11/1/2007 by jensouth31]

If you are thinking about it, and writing about it, . . . .part of you wants
closure. It is not easy to forgive someone you love. Especially if they are
family. But one day you'll look in the mirror and say, "You know, you did
the right thing in forgiving her."
Of course there won't be an answer, . . maybe just your smile.
But . . . . .your heart will feel lighter.

Daughter, child of mine
Don't question the divine
Things happen for a reason
Even if you call it treason

Say a prayer
That's only fair
Hate doesn't heal you
Step into her shoes

Are you angry
Or feeling guilty?
You couldn't save her
So try to love her

She's my child
I miss her a pile
Don't worry about my grief
Death is a thief



[edit on 8-3-2008 by Excitable_Boy]

I have seen my little sister Linda, just about 4 weeks ago in fact. Wow! It was really a matter of my older sister, Cindy, tricking me into it. Damn it!! We were both (Cindy & I) over visiting mom & dad when my little sister walked through the front door. I hugged her, had a short conversation & made some small talk. I was impressed with how much she had grown up & taken responsibility ... Enough said.

Haven't talked to her since, but the ice has been broken. At first sight, I was mildly upset at Cindy pushing me into something I wasn't ready for yet. It's been a year and a half since my initial post....God I'm stubborn. Perhaps it was time for me to break down some protective walls....Thanks Cindy



Edit to add*

[edit on 4/24/2009 by jensouth31]

Family is family
Hard to hate
Unless something really bad happens
Incest and abuse cannot be forgiven
But stupid human behavior
We shouldn't concern ourselves with that
We are all stupid humans
Family members die
And when they die they don't come back
My grand parents, parents and brother are gone
I think about that when I want to be mad at my sisters

It was really bad....

Hopefully that chapter of her life will never open up & re-surface again.

Hard Core Drug Addictions...

Sorry to hear that Carrot. Drug addiction is a disease. I'm sober going on 8 years and I'm also a CADAC (Certified Alcohol & Drug Abuse Counselor)....

I have always been a good person but did a lot of crappy things when I was using. I used people and members of my family. Things that were out of character for me....

I don't try to make excuses but again, addiction is a disease. Once a person becomes addicted, using is no longer a choice.

I wish her well and you also. God bless you and your whole family.