Jannastar,
I'm sorry you had such a rough life!!!
You are VERY strong to have come out sensible!
I had loving parents and I still struggled!
I was the youngest of 3 girls with 3 half-siblings and 3 step-siblings.
We would dabble with the occult(a little) because although we went to church Easter and Christmas, we didn't have a good knowledge of Jesus.
I tried to commit suicide at 16 by cutting my wrists, then overdosing.
I became more and more depressed, as I would sit in my room and play diary of a madman (on a record player!!!) I did not have any faith in
God....
I struggled and endured life until 23 when I became born again.
The devil is real and Jeshua has given us ALL power over him and his devices. When we live sanctified lives, we have the Holy Spirit to guide us at
all times.We have to daily "Put on the whole armor of God"....
His truth sets us free when we surrender ALL willful ignorance and desire the truth. ( I'm not calling you that, but many people get side tracked
from God by decieving spirits)
If we don't get the truth, we might get "strong delusion".
I know thats not what Jesus(Jeshua) wants for us.
I hope I've been helpful, sister in Christ.
ps., I've never been more aware of the devil than after I became a christian. From day one he opposed me, physically and trying to scare me away
from my faith, It's similar to Pilgrims progress, by John Bunyan, When Christian was trying to get to the strait gate, (I believe, it's been about
ten years ago when I read it) and the dogs were tied in the same area, but Christian couldn't see the rope and thought the dogs might get
him.


Have a Blessed week!!!