Illuminati, it sounds to me like your "intensive research" wa heavily laced with hate-generated information and racial bias. What kind of research have you "just come back from" that causes you to think that those who follow Christ and are white are oppressive? Do you live and work in such a limited world that you don't see pale-skinned people working and living the same way as you?
What is this the followers of Christ are "feeding us the crumbs that fell to the ground" and why don't you feed yourself? That is what this
follower of Christ does every day. He goes to work and works alongside other whites and blacks, native Americans and one Puerto-Rican, and we are all
doing the same thing - feeding our families. Who your "us" is that seems to be eating table scraps of the white followers of Christ are, stop
it! Get jobs! It is so much better for your self esteems!
You seem to be really caught up on color, and that is going to cause you more spiritual and physical torment than you can imagine, but that is your
path to chose and if it brings you some kind of perverse pleasure than whatever. It is your right as long as it detracts from nobody else. Problem
is, it is going to grow into hate, and hate usually manifests into a physical violation of someone else's rights.
You say Christ is black? Funny, I've never heard anyone say that He is white, nor have I ever seen a picture of Him depicted as an Irish man from
Dublin, have you? He's always been depicted as Aramaic. That has never given me any trouble as an extremely white man (so white that it doesn't
take any time at all in direct sunlight to burn) that He is not depicted as I look, and to be honest, never even thought of it. I've always been
extremely happy that He paid a debt I'd never be able to pay so that I might make it to Heaven. What difference does His color make? You're
letting that "research" distract you from the important thing.