posted on Feb, 11 2007 @ 02:50 PM
So you are still using methadone, as well as prescriptions for anxiety and ADD? I'm guessing benzos and maybe adderall...? I'm definitely not
saying to disobey the orders of a doctor, but personally, I believe that psychiatrists are frauds in many instances...puppets for the pharmaceutical
companies, getting you hooked on exactly the same type of drug you would be buying out on the street, only difference is that the pharm. companies are
the ones dealing the drugs.
I don't think any kind of spiritual problem causes anyone to use drugs. People use drugs because they are interested in the possible effects, and
many psychologists agree that it is a normal desire to want to escape your typical reality from time to time (we all do it at the bar on occasion)...I
have had my days of experimentation, so I know how it is, but I have never been addicted to anything because I just decided it was ok to test it out,
but after that it could only be bad news by continuing use of any drug...
It's not really your fault for trying drugs...but it is (partially) your fault in becoming addicted, and remaining addicted even though you have
realized the harm caused by them. The reason I say partially, is because these addictive drugs are so powerful, it is very hard for a person to
resist the feelings that they get. Opiates are probably the worst, as they specifically affect receptors which have been hard-wired into our brains
for hundreds of thousands of years, making you feel secure, happy, content, warm, fuzzy, pain free, etc. Doctors have been the cause of many opiate
addictions...they send you home with a bottle of vicodin for a minor pain, and soon the person becomes addicted. When they can't get more, they
start using heroin, and then it heads downhill from there.
When I was a teenager, I remember getting my wisdom teeth out, and the pain wasn't bad enough to require anymore than advil at the most, but I got a
bottle of vicodin...and the bottle was gone within about 4 days after I got it. I definitely know it would be easy to get addicted to that stuff, and
it's really something that's half chance and half will power if you try it, whether or not you get addicted. I tried a few different things in my
time, but never gave in to friends who would deliberately try to pressure me into something...I know quite a few people from those high school
experimenting days who just dug themselves into a hole with drugs and still have yet to even turn around, look up, and see the light. It's a
completely normal thing to experiment, but once you go beyond that, the chemical has got you. It doesn't matter what kind of personal,
mental/spiritual issues you might have, it just comes down to will power. Whether or not you can force yourself to stop.
My advice...stop finding ways to regret your choices or justify them, just realize that you made some mistakes, which is normal, but now that you know
what to do, do it. You just have to realize that you are not actually living life because you are controlled by a chemical. Take back the control.
Don't waste your time, money, health, friends/family, and your life in general with some pill or powder that will never actually help you or care
about you. you have to care about and help yourself, and you have the potential to stop, just make the decision.
[edit on 11-2-2007 by Shoktek]