posted on Jan, 17 2006 @ 10:28 PM
Hello everyone, this is my first post. I.. don't really know, I guess I wanted somebodys opinion on what's happening to me.. I guess..? Well, here
It's been about a year since I had my first lucid dream. I once experienced sleep paralysis when I was twelve years old (I am 19 now) and when that
happened I freaked out, because for what seemed millenia to me (and it must have been five minutes at the most) I was hearing interrupted and
extremely strange noises.
Anyhow, about a year ago, I started having lucid dreams, and occasionally OOBE. Since then, I experience both at least 3-4 times a week. It seemed
very cool at first, having OOBEs was a great experience (even though I wake up more tired than when I went to sleep) and lucid dreaming was
interesting at first. But now things have changed. A couple of months ago, I was having a very weird lucid dream, or maybe it was an OOBE, I really
can't tell because in this dream/OOBE I was completely lucid and at the same time I was sort of floating around without control, except it wasn't
happening in my bedroom like all the other times, I was like.. high up in the clouds in what looked like an early morning sky. Then I started hearing
a male voice which kept saying to wake up, and which was VERY distorted. It then said something I couldn't understand, because the voice was
extermely distorted. Then I woke up and I was hyperventilating and was almost in shock.
I laughed at that afterwards, because I am used to dreaming wicked stuff and I simply disregarded it as a weird dream, perhaps influenced by the movie
"Donnie Darko" (which is where my nickname comes from). But now, on to what happened very recently. Yesterday night, I had a very very weird lucid
dream. I was in my kitchen, and my mother was sitting in the chair she always sits in. She was talking to me, and I was "asking" her questions
mentally, because I knew it was a lucid dream, so I didn't try to talk, I just.. thought about what I wanted to ask her, and she answered me.
Suddenly, faces of people I had NEVER seen before in my entire life started appearing in front of her face, almost like a hologram, they changed in
rapid succession, they only lasted like 2 seconds each. They must have been 4-5. As soon as that happened, my mother changed voice, and It was all
distorted, I couldn't understand what she was saying. I freaked out, and tryed to wake up. As I managed to do that, I saw some kind of shadow (while
still dreaming) covering up the entire scene. I then opened my eyes, and for about five minutes, everytime I closed them I kept seeing those faces,
and one of them was a body of an old woman, a dead body. It scares me to even think about it, it was damn horrible.
Anyhow, I couldn't sleep last night. Tonight, I went to sleep late, it was about 3 AM or something. Again, I had a lucid dream, only worse. I was in
a shop I know very well, which is near where I live. It was night and I was alone in the shop. The moment I was there, I was lucid. And then, the
moment I actually realized where I was and that it was a lucid dream, I started floating around the shop in a circular pattern, without control. Then
I got close to a wall, and I looked down and saw that I was wearing short pants. I NEVER wear short pants, and have never wore them before, I have
always hated them. They also looked to tight on me, as if they were a female model. As soon as I thought "hey these look like they're female pants"
I heard the "WOOOOOOOOSSHHHHHHHH" and the "BUUUUZZZZ" that I always hear SO hard in my ears/mind when I'm having a lucid dream or OOBE. It's so
loud that it almost hurts, I can even sense my whole head vibrating. At that point, I tried to calm down, like I always try to do. Then my body
started.. well this is hard to explain, expecially since my english isn't that good. Anyhow, I started penetrating the wall, I was like rotating to
an axis centered in my body, and I was rotating through the wall there. Then something very weird happened, I felt like my "space" was being
invaded, like there was somebody with me who was trying to make me do something, and I didn't want to do anything because I did not know what was
happening! So I tryed to concentrate and I started repeating to myself "you are myname" and so on. At that point, just when I stopped repeating
that, I heard a female voice, which shook the silence all of a sudden and repeated something I again could not understand like 10-15 times in a row,
with her distorted voice always louder as she kept repeating it, as if she knew that I would have difficulties understanding what she was going to
say. This time the voice was different, it was a little more clear than all the other times. I also noticed that it appeared to come from "behind my
head" - this is so difficult to explain, believe me. This time the distortion of the voice was randomly going away, and the voice was clear for like
1 second at a time at random intervals. And this time, instead of passively standing all this, I tryed to focus and understand what she was saying,
and I calculated that it must have been 6 maybe 7 words in total. I also tryed to see wether she was talking to me in my language (italian) or if it
was another language, but I couldn't figure that out. The ending letter, or at least the ending sound of the phrase was "o". What really freaked me
out though is what happened next. After about 10-15 times of her repeating that phrase I woke up and opened my eyes, and I saw - this time with my
EYES OPENED - the face of a blonde girl in her 30s with a marilyn monroe style haircut looking at me. It almost looked in two dimensions though, it
almost looked like a photograph. It disappeared within seconds.
If you've read all that you already have my thanks, I've been quite lengthy, even though I didn't intend to be., but I wanted to describe
everything as best as I could. Has anybody experienced things like this? Anything at all like what I am experiencing? Am I just going mad, is it just
my brain that's making me hear and see these things, or is there something else behind? How can I find a way to make out what these people are
telling me?? Any opinion, help, or hell, even skepticism are immensely appreciated!
[edit on 17/1/06 by donnie]