I have had a combination of lucid dreams, night terrors and 'sort of' prophetic dreams all my life. 'Sort of' because I've never been able to
help anyone the way Oni xx did. Mine are Joseph and the Amazing Color Dreamcoat like. Not only are they vivid, I have to sit there and figure out what
the 7 thin cows are supposed to be about.
Occasionally I have the 'epic' prophetic dreams - which are so frightening, painful, clear and usually accurate - that I spend two weeks afterward
in a daze. Earthquakes, floods, mudslides, fires, tsunamis, usually involving many people and occuring the night before or a few days. I walk down the
streets, smell things, hear things, my vision 100 sharp and all before the event. In other words it is like watching a film, not a Dali-esque dream.
The only good thing about these dreams is that I sometimes die quickly. Other times I die but then I turn into someone else. Othertimes I am the
entire multiple awareness of the population and so I just watch helpless in the face of destruction.
Sometimes I get the really sad, personal dreams where I suffer, my loved ones suffer or I get killed. Most of the time in these dreams I am not me,
but someone else entirely. Either I am that person, related to that person or watching them. No matter, as I can feel all their pain as I am them.
Sorry to sound so Borgesian but I don't know how to explain it any better.
I had an awful one last week where these little kids (about 6 or 7 years old) were being held in a warehouse near a port somewhere - I could see the
pier, smell the salt air. Their abuser was tall and had weird teeth, like a little pervy overbite and such a horrible laugh I still get goosebumbs
thinking about it. I was watching a little girl try to run and you don't want to know what happened to her.
I never get the names of people or dates and other than the descriptions of the people, I don't get locations. In other words, pretty useless 'so
called' prophetic dreams for me.
In the last few years I've started to have unpleasant involuntary out of body dreams, where I can actually see myself lying in bed before wandering
off - usually to places I don't want to be. As much as I try to wake myself up - I can't. Or worse, I deceive myself and think i've stopped
dreaming, then realise after a few seconds I still am. This type of strange, surreal dreaming, is not lucid in the slightest, but I am completely
aware of what is going on at all times. I am not someone else, or watching anyone.
In this bizarre dreamstate I have seen a lot of things I can't explain or understand: creatures beyond imagining, death, creation and what I can only
call a version of Dante's Hell.
It is often paired with sleep paralysis so I have the feeling I am trapped and controlled by something that I can't break free of. As I mentioned
before, I loathe these dreams as I struggle for a long time to get out of them. Time and space is not like our own. These are the types of dreams that
make you go mad.
I learned very quickly in my life not to talk to people about my dreams if I didn't want to get strange or annoying looks. I disciplined myself and
have kept dream journals for years. This has helped me maintain the semblence of control.
In the reverse fashion of some people, I have had to train myself NOT to have lucid dreams (yes, it is possible). I can almost go for months now
without remembering my dreams and I'm quite happy to keep it that way.
[edit on 19-9-2005 by nikelbee]