I tried my best, I did everything I thought I could do to help them, but yet drama is always there. My cousin, who just turned 18 on th 4/20 is 11
weeks pregnant. she has been hiding her pregnancy from the family until now. I took this girl into my home in the beginning of this year when she
ran away from her mom's house, I drove her to and from GED classes everyday, she told me she wanted to be a medical billing code specialist, she was
going to go to school for it. I've been researching and contacting schools for her. She passed her GED, I helped her get a job, I thought she was
on the right track. She said she didn't want to get married or start a family till next year but yet she got pregnant.
My aunt is crushed, my granny is distraught, my entire family, my mom...all my aunts are sad, dissappointed and well scared. There's nothing I or
any of us can do now to change this situation, to prevent this girl from making a mistake she might regret, it has been done, my worst fears have been
realized and now she has to deal with the consequences.
The guy is in this country on a student visa and imo just looking to get his papers and this baby gives him the insurance he needed. I tried to tell
this girl since she was 15, that the attentions of a 21 year old man wasn't healthy, she didnt listen
I can only offer my support and help her as a sister, a cousin once again, I have to be willing to accept her with all her baggage and flaws even
though sometimes I feel like I can't. My heart is breaking and tears are running down my face as I type this, i just got off the phone with my aunt
who just broke down in her driveway. It rips me apart inside to listen to my aunt, the woman who raised me, cry. It burns me inside to see my almost
84 year grandmother shed tears. It eats me up to see such a beautiful and bright girl chose the path which she did. My family has slowly crumbling
over the past 3 years, now we have fallen apart and are lying there likes crumbs on a empty plate.
I know why I am in this family, I know it is my purpose to help them, to keep them together, to keep them sane, to provide support to all who need it,
but right now I'm feeling very weak and i feel my burden may be too great for me to carry. I don't know how much longer I can offer my shoulder and
my ears without also breaking down. I hope by writing this I am able to relieve some of what is on my mind and that I can continue to be strong,
stable and sane for them all.