Addiction is strong, deeply wired in our brains. Even a person who has recovered and been sober for 30 years is still considered an addict. It becomes
who you are and it seems addiction is almost always accompanied by some other unique talent or creative trait.
An addict either gradually loses everything until there eventual demise. Or eventually recognizes what's happening to them and begin to strive for
change and freedom.
"an addict spends all day, works and stresses, hustles steals and worries and eventually pays for what a sober person gets for free"
"eventually addiction becomes like wrapping a rubber band around your finger so tight it cuts the circulation off only to feel the relief of removing
-Some Random quotes from regular folks-........they have stuck with me.
What's respectable in my eyes is someone who gets caught up in a bad drug habit, ends up in deep water, realizes what they have done and begin the
long swim back, yet the whole time they maintain their responsibilities.
Specifically during the recovery/detox phase(S) It's fun when you are riding cloud nine. During WDs, not so much.
Job, family, appearance, social life, ect........
That is not easy and many fail and lose all of those things. Not easy at all. I've done it twice, maintained, the love for my family and desire to be
the me I know Can was all I needed, however i can not reiterate enough how downright miserable I was. I won't create that reality again.
I know at least one other person who has pulled this off, it takes a lot of guts, will, heart, and mental strength.
A wise person who cares will endure all of this for the sake of their family and to become a better person, again, for the sake of their family.
It's stupid to even get that far, especially multiple times, and not worth it,not even close.
Those same endorphins are activated in many different healthy ways. No Illegal activities, $cheap$, no WDS, healthy, good for body mind and spirit.
Pursuing these natural highs can actually advance you as a human being. Pursuing chemical induced highs will most likely do the opposite.
What happens is you're trying to quit. Your body hates you for that and lets you know. Every slight movement sucks and is a monumental challenge on
its own, and that's the easy part. It can get downright hellacious.
Getting dressed was difficult enough, Now you're expected to stay on schedule, make it to work on time and perform well while you're there.
A 9 hour day feels like a 12-15 at least. Every hour, no every minute, sucks, to the max.............but it's your fault it could always be worse and
you need this damn job.........
It gets worse because you go home and aren't feeling much better, for some the anxiety that's been building all day manifests, for others it hurts
however their individual mind wants it too.
Then you must remain positive during any big family event you may find yourself committed to, and you need to act well for your family because they
don't deserve any less.
Your blood pressure spikes, and you have miserable night of attempted sleep, knowing you must repeat what you just barely trudged
through...........that days even worse, the third probably just as bad.........the fourth or fifth it's not over yet but at some point there is this
fleeting moment of normalcy.......it's freaking beautiful. It's that light at the end of the tunnel you so desperately wanted to see.
After that you're still a bit sluggish, but wake up one morning and think, "holy cow"! "I feel happy, normal, Drug free"?! Gosh it's priceless.
However right around this time the cravings start up and your mind tries to trick you into using, just once though of course.........pffffftttt, yeah
right..........if you're an idiot like me, you'll make this mistake 4-5 times. It gets progressively harder on your body and difficult to rid from
your life each time.
If I didn't stick to my dietary standards, or didn't have someone up there working overtime looking after me, I'd either be passed on or at least much
much worse off then I am now. All the more reason to be sober for my remaining time on this planet.
One positive take away from struggling with an addiction, is that if you conquer that demon, you have earned a unique mental strength that can be
applied elsewhere in life, basically just extra confidence and a strong sense of optimism.
During many of lifes trials and hardships, such as divorce and custody conflicts for example (been there too, got her back through the law of
attraction, no joke). These things cut a person deep, you find yourself with no choice but to fall apart or come back stronger.
If you come back, chances are you aren't to be trifled with. Suddenly the petty things in life are recognized for what they are.
1-9-2015 by GoShredAK because: (no reason given)