Blood ritual monarch blog from a montauk victim- what is your opinion?

Sorry ran out of room but thought of more...
Not a fan of spiders. I enjoy watching them but I'm equally frightened. Same with snakes.
Not a fan of blood. Mine or anyone else's (guess we differ there) the other fluids... well that may have something to do with the porn industry but yes there is a fascination.
I've always felt like I would be a witness to something major before I left this earth. Always had that feeling but I'm sure most people do, especially these days.
I used to have a repetitive dream from as far back as I could remember till I was about 13 or so...
I would be standing outside, on a corner of the street and I was looking into the sky. The sky was filled with thousands of floating telephone pole looking objects that reached out to the horizon.
There was a person near me who was also looking up. I think he was some kind of authority figure (cop?).
Suddenly everything speeds up. My heart palpitates. I have trouble breathing and now I'm being dragged down a hallway by 2 beings.
They were small like children but very strong because as hard as I tried I could not break from their grip.
They place me in this alcove. Just a small indent in a wall with a curved top and I'm stuck there and cannot move.
Suddenly a feeling like I'm on fire wraps around my entire body. No flames just the feeling of burning and i'm screaming or trying to scream but the pain is so intense there is no sound and they are just standing there in front of me watching...
Sometimes I had that dream while i was awake. I remember the last time I had it was while i was doing laundry when I was 13.
I've come to believe I was reliving some kind of traumatic event that happened when I was little, but sometimes i wonder if it is an event that hasn't happened yet. Maybe my first memory is my last?
I have tons more but this is a thread about programming and I don't want to hog it up.
I'm just purging in case anything sounds familiar.

Originally posted by BloodRitualMonarch
reply to post by svetlana84

 

I spent almost a decade sequestered in my house with just movies and music. The triggering potential of those two mediums alone is incalculable. The personality change of the teenager in Christine followed the classic stages of possession very accurately. Also, falling asleep during a movie is very telling. When our bodies are asleep our minds are still awake and absorbing everything.

I started watching Jacob’s Ladder last night….uh; I still don’t completely get it…LOL.

I agree with you completelly here, and think there are many known, but unrevealed as yet secrets about how our brains process and react differently to visual and muscial stimuli, as well as a patttern of light flashing and so forth. It's actually what would be called an entrainmnet method, and that's how the trigger becomes a trigger....

As to Jacob's Ladder (which along with Apocalypse Now and Platoon) these have long been trigger movies for me. You realize, huh, in getting Jacob;s Ladder that he's really dead, having died in Viet Nam but he's stuck in some kind of limbo between heaven and hell, his soul not realizing he's already gone.

Also there are certainly theories that some kind of holographic like protection, such as looking like an alien, has been employed by perpetrators of the Monarch programming, both so they can't be identified, and also when the "slave" tries to speak out, they'll seem ever crazier.

reply to post by BloodRitualMonarch


I can't stop reading your blog.

I am taking it from your advice of "just read it for the great story it is, if nothing else"....with that nagging of some familiarity in there somewhere.

reply to post by groingrinder


Wow; a movie...that would be great. I'm glad the blog is entertaining. Just getting it out of my system has been so very therapeutic.

Cheers mate

reply to post by bigfatfurrytexan


Thanks man; I really appreciate that. Yep; it's whatever you want it to be. So many people talk about this subject matter with arrogance and certainty....who are they to dictate what another person's reality is?

Intuition, in my opinion, is the only real truth. The nagging familiarity is a cool feeling; mysterious and trippy.

Cheers

reply to post by tetra50


Entrainment.....yes, I've come across that before in my research. I've read that the images and sounds in movies distract us while subtler layers of data on various other frequencies imprint us on a deep subconscious level. Insidiously brilliant when you think about it...

I'm embarrassed; people have told me that he's already dead (in Jacob's Ladder) but to be completely honest, I haven't picked up on that yet. I'll have to watch it again....the 'ah ha' moment will come eventually...LOL

reply to post by MildyAmuzed


Hi,

Thanks for reading the blog and for your kind words. Also, thanks for sharing all of that. I resonate with a lot of what you said. I look familiar? Maybe we know each other; anything is possible.

I’ve had someone do NLP on me too! It’s freaky….and very invasive. It was an NLP ‘tapping’ session…I went along with it because it was in my best interest to play along…it was also in a work setting like your experience.

An Adult shop? That must be really interesting….talk about the best place to observe human nature. You could write a book or do a reality show with all of the stuff that must go on there. However, the astral energy must be thick at times. People’s auric fields become so much more intensified / electrified when in a sexual state. Lower astral energies feed off of sexual energy and are probably packed in elbow-to-elbow with the 3D clientele….LOL…but something to consider. Maybe burn sage around yourself after a shift….none of my business but just a suggestion to keep the sucker-fish type entities away. Hospitals and cemeteries have thick astral environments too and I’m very drawn to them…but you never know what’s going to follow you home.

Wow, 8 or 9? I didn’t have sex until I was 19….well; my first conscious memory of sex. Oh my; how embarrassing.

Cuddling will get you far, my friend  Women love cuddles….and if you really don’t feel the need for cuddles yourself then it’s likely that a part of your emotional body has been ‘iced’ over by some sort of trauma.

We are on the same page with spiders for sure….I’m utterly fascinated but screech like a teenage girl when surprised by them. I do like snakes though…they can snuggle in bed with me; no probs. I love the way they move…and no yucky, hairy appendages like arachnids.

You are a lucky man indeed with the Tinkerbelle Programming. I’ve got a friend the same age as me with similar issues and he looks in his 20’s too…the lucky bastard 

That repetitive dream you’ve been having means something for sure. I’m not really good at dream analysis but there are many layers of symbolism in there. The small child-type beings dragging you could be Grey aliens…

And yes; the masturbation / visualization / manifestation technique really works. It has taken me years to get to the point where I can focus on creating something while not being distracted by the pleasure. Some days it’s easier than others but the results will freak you out.

Cheers mate

Originally posted by BloodRitualMonarch
reply to post by tetra50

 

Entrainment.....yes, I've come across that before in my research. I've read that the images and sounds in movies distract us while subtler layers of data on various other frequencies imprint us on a deep subconscious level. Insidiously brilliant when you think about it...

I'm embarrassed; people have told me that he's already dead (in Jacob's Ladder) but to be completely honest, I haven't picked up on that yet. I'll have to watch it again....the 'ah ha' moment will come eventually...LOL

Don't be embarrassed; several people I've discussed that movie with who saw it the first time didn't get that "aha" moment at first viewing, either. Chronologically, event-wise the movie seems all over the place the first time, I think, you see it. Do you remember the scene where Louis, his chiropractor gets him out of the hospital, takes him back to his office, and is working on his back and says to him: Sometimes the demons you see are really angels trying to deliver you. Sometime after that scene, therre is another Viet Nam memory he has, when he realizes that when his platoon came under attack, so they thought, they were really attacking each other....and he recalls being stabbed in the stomach with the bayonet of one of his own platoon members, and then a memory of being taken by stretcherr to a mobile mash unit and being pronounced dead. That's the epiphanous moment where he realizes he died there and then, and it explains when he and his former platoon mates who meet up and try to fight the government, they all find that there is no record of their existence, as though they had been "erased," in a way. The reality is they had all died, and were wondering souls, on the other side, in limbo, having not yet realized their own deaths......

At least, this was my take on it. Watch it again, because at least in my opiinion, it was a unique, moving, and worthwhile movie. However, for a veteran, it could also be a severely triggering movie.
Tetra50

reply to post by tetra50


Thanks, I'll give it another whirl. Things are starting to make sense now. It's definitely not your typical Hollywood spoon-fed movie. Curiously enough; that chiropractor angel scene really stuck in my mind. Over the years there have been certain movies that would otherwise have been right up my alley (paranormal, horror type stuff) but for some reason I avoided them. I never really looked closely ay Jacob's Ladder and it's quite possible that mind control programming (if I really even have it) steered me away from this film because it has answers.

Cheers

It s great to see this thread alive.

Thank you all for your contributions. I know it s not an easy subject to talk about, so i appreciate how open you talk about it. And i hope it helps you too, as bloodritual wrote, sort of a therapeutical thing.

MildyAmused, i just read the thread you posted back in 2009 about the occurences at night and the metal thing in your hand. Funny eough i remember i read that back in the days! (dang it s a long time i am on ATS.
Anyway, in the meantime, did you find what the thing in your hand is/was?

About Jacobs Ladder: like some of you wrote, it s also my take, that the whole story is constructed while the guy is dying in nam.

Speaking of movies, the dream that mildyamused described, especially the part with flames wrapped around me while the others watching rememberd me of carrie, anothe of steven kings movie. This one fits in here as well..

And BloodMonarch, i could see the blog very well as a movie (i guess it would not be big hollywood, since there everything has to be shiny and clean). But definetely enough material for a good story. And i like the way its written better anyway, its personal. And i like the timeframes. A normal past to future line would be boring, and it fits the memory that the timeframes are changing. So keep em coming :-)

Another thing i wanted to ask: you have all been born in a military/naval hospital?
It seems to be a pattern that a lot of 'montauk boys' have a military family background.

reply to post by svetlana84


I don't think I am a "Montauk Child".

However, my mom and 3 of her 4 siblings lived in Kwajalein from 1965 to 1969. There are a few stories of intrigue (like how it coincided that they began performing heavy launch activities in 1968, right about the time that the folks on the island were forbidden from viewing any more launches).

A family trait that cropped up in my generation is lupus among the females. It isn't really lupus, but rather a similar autoimmune disease. The boys in my generation don't have lupus, but we have plenty of other nice little gifts to carry forward. My youngest son shows some of the same traits. The boys are relatively unscathed compared to the girls (i have a cousin that can be hospitalized when she sweats due to an allergy to something in her sweat....or her severe allergy to sunlight and the scars she has from the blisters gained by sitting near a window).

By the time I was born, everyone was back stateside. I have been raised to distrust my government and military, mostly because of my grandfathers experiences shortly before, during, and after Kwaj.

But I have a lot of the characteristics mentioned (particularly my macabre fascination with Nazi's, and a few other things I am not that comfortable discussing at this point).

Originally posted by BloodRitualMonarch
reply to post by tetra50

 

Thanks, I'll give it another whirl. Things are starting to make sense now. It's definitely not your typical Hollywood spoon-fed movie. Curiously enough; that chiropractor angel scene really stuck in my mind. Over the years there have been certain movies that would otherwise have been right up my alley (paranormal, horror type stuff) but for some reason I avoided them. I never really looked closely ay Jacob's Ladder and it's quite possible that mind control programming (if I really even have it) steered me away from this film because it has answers.

Cheers

Ah, yes, you will notice in my own list of "trigger" movies, they all contained answers for me....
I don't view that movie as a "horror" genre, though.....I think it's more about what happens, possibly, to a soul, disembodied, after death, that is a shock, or under certain circumstances.....

Do give it another whirl, though I am careful, myself, about what I intake once I've gotten the "answers," for the entrainment angle is still very much a viable one. What I said earlier about entrainment is a very real thing: think Clockwork Orange. That's what they were doing to him, holding his eyes open, drugging him, and forcing him to watch various violent and graphic things...... True entrainment is more complicated than that, and involved, but a very real thing.....
Have enjoyed your thread,, though the title at first scared the crap out of me....LOL
Tetra50

And BTW, I think you are very brave, as I have some "experience" of these things....know a little myself about Montauk, and believe it was something of a coalescence of time deportation breaking through the membranes of the dimensions, and a trap where people were caught up, who didn't start out here, if that makes any sense. But unlike you, I haven't quite the guts to talk about it, yet.

I do have an official looking pdf doc someone sent me (incomplete, only the first three pages) of teleportation experiements by the military at Edwards Air Force Base. If you would like, I would find a way to make it accessible to you, as it is some kind of proof, at least, there were "officials" aware of this and playing around with it----maybe not such a good idea, as it's not an exact science type of thing.
Tetra

reply to post by svetlana84


Hi Svetlana,

Thanks for your comment on the timeframes. I tried to make the story as cohesive as possible. The universe prompted me to tell certain parts at certain times and I hoped the zigzagging wouldn’t put people off.

Regarding a movie; the CGI they have available now could really bring the demons to life…it's hard to depict that stuff accurately on film.

My Dad and Grandfather were Navy and I was in a military cadet program from ages 12-15. We had weekend sleep-over’s in a Civil Defense building across from the local Naval reserve center. The Friday evening cadet meetings were held in the Navy building and then we went across to the basement of the Civil defense building afterwards for the rest of the weekend. That place was creepy and had no windows. We also visited military installations all over the Northeast and spent a week at the Quantico Marine base in Virginia. Stewart Swerdlow told me that Quantico is a secret CIA / NSA programming center. Who knows for sure….all I know is that I remember very little of that trip.

reply to post by tetra50


So true about Clockwork Orange….it was so blatant but on purpose. Recent films with programming themes that really affected me were Hanna about a genetically ‘tweaked’ girl turned into a super soldier and Sucker Punch which is (I think) about alter systems. There are so many but those two come to mind. The problem for me with these films (and certain types of music) is that I get addicted to the neurochemicals they trigger and become dependant on them otherwise I get depressed.

Thanks for your kind words Tetra; I really appreciate that. I used to record my dreams then destroy them for fear of being put in a mental hospital. Five years ago I would have never considered documenting any of this but it was either that or death. My self destructive tendencies came to a head exactly on Dec 21st of last year. I’m still flabbergasted by the synchronicity and think it could have been a case of time sensitive (End Times) programming that I somehow averted / deactivated.

Your take on Montauk feels accurate and I like the way you described it…membranes of the dimensions…cool. I’d very much like to check out the PDF you mentioned. Teleportation has always been an obsession of mine.

reply to post by BloodRitualMonarch


Ah yes, Hannah was the same for me, as well. Although what you describe as to how you react to these movies, what they trigger and the effect, is often different for me. As in, not necessarily good, but an opening, in a way, of a wave or flood of memory, frequently not pleasant and extremely emotional, all in rapid succession which becomes overwhelming.

This is why I say you are brave, and understand exactly what you are talking about when you say your self destructive tendencies were taking over by burying what had to come out, somehow, or it would have taken you over, perhaps. I understand and resonate with that in a huge way, and experience the same inner battle myself. Bury it or face it. I've written about it some, but live in a situation where I cannot trust that my private things are not perused by otherrs here.....so for now, I must keep my facing it only in my mind, maiinly. Hard way to go, but you are obviously familiar with the pitfalls in the terrain we're speaking of here, as in being locked up if your writing got into the wrong hands.

Have much enjoyed your thread, and our interchange. And it has been quite helpful to me.
Take care.
Tetra50

Thanks again tetra and bloodritual for your posts!

Tetra, off course we d like to see the document, it s ATS after all! But then again, if you look at Snowden, Manning and Assange... Maybe one day someone posts a document somewhere and somebody else finds it and can provide a link?

And yes, clockwork orange, what a mindf... Just remember pink floyds the wall, that put me off my trails as well.

Funny enough i also have kind of an obsession with Nazis, most of my darkes night,ares are groups of nazitypes chasing me, and i always woke up with a beating heart in a puddle of sweat.

Bloodritual monarch: with your background it really looks like being brought up on or near a military base has something to do with it. Quite disgusting that they use their own folks for these experiments.

Another thing i find interesting, in your blog you often mention your 'pr side' (funny scene, when you did a ritual with the fellow OTOs and the neighbours showed up :-).
Anyway, i am interested, how did you manage to have these extreme weekends, but still managed to keep two jobs a wife and even visited the parents of the wife?

Are you able to be 'normal' (whatever that means) from mon to friday? Without giving clues how you spend your weekends?
I had some trouble in some jobs when i showed up with rings under my eyes on monday, and that was only from ' normal' partying.

This is the way the world is. And in every single region, small towns aren't excluded but often havens for german and cia, secret service, miltary, satanic and occult rituals and torture, abuse and murder. They fragment minds and create super soldiers or tools.

reply to post by svetlana84


Hi Svetlana84:
I haven't read this member's blog. Just thought I'd say that to you both.....I already know it may trigger some things for me that perhaps I'm not quite ready for, though just from what the OP has said in this thread, I know what this blog will be like. Yes, I agree, also about The Wall, and the music from that particular band has always resonated with me on a very deep level, beyond just sounds I'm enjoying.
But as you asked OP yourself, this cuts right to the heart of it: how do you live with these realities, which are so "unreal" in our day to day lives we must somehow still continue to function within? And so, for me, I have to pace myself with thinking about it and remembering, and frequently avoid what I know will be a triggering of a flood of recall I may not be able to handle, and will send me into a non functioning tailspin for days.

And Unity99:

I agree with you wholeheartedly, though not trying to bash all small towns, but there is certainly a harsh element of truth to your assessment, and I was raised in a town of 3,000, with every male relative-every one-in the military and officers, though I strongly suspect I was adopted, and that may explain, to some degree, why children closely associated with military members are "tapped" in this way. Perhaps many of them were adopted as well, and somehow this lack of blood tie makes this easier for these people to use them in these ways......and I have found, it's always couched under the pursuit of "research," though clearly, it goes deeper than that.....
For my part, I empathize, sympathize and admire anyone who came out of experiences like this, being fractured just as you put it, and can keep any semblance of emotional normalcy at all, much less have the courage to speak out about it, for there is often a price to be paid for that, as well, much less just remembering everything.
Tetra50