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Originally posted by angryamerican
Things I am reminded of as I browse all these great post of support.
1: Temper does not show maturity and manhood. It shows the opposite.
2: having a baby or baby's does not make you a father attitude and maturity does.
3: Military service does not make you a man, attitude and maturity does. With the help of your Drill Sargent
4: When the damage is done its hard but not impossible to fix as long as it has not gone on too long.
5: Friends will come and go but there touch on your life is forever.
6: when you are truly in love Show it. If you do not you will lose the love and respect of the one you love.
7: Dependence on a chemical is always a bad thing.
There are some good articles on the net on anger management, control.
And ANGER can be a huge survival issue . . . in relationships and in some situations--one's own survival.
Most of the time . . . anger relates to insecurity, Attachment Disorder fostered pride, fears, brittleness etc.
It can help a lot to take a step back . . .
DELAY responding.
Take a walk around the block.
Breathe slowly 6-8 seconds out; 6-8 seconds in for 30-90 seconds. It changes the blood chemistry in the brain toward relaxation.
Take 5 min out and reflect on something positive about yourself; about the other person; about the situation. Discipline your thinking until you can do that BEFORE responding.
Anger usually attempts to !DEMAND! something perceived to be missing . . . or to retaliate in vengeance.
NEITHER ONE WORKS. Only negative fallout results. Even temporary satisfaction is short-lived and costly.
You can say things to yourself like . . .
"It's OK. I can overcome this calmly and maturely."
"It doesn't matter how wrong they are or even what an ignorant jerk they seem bent on being. It matters how maturely and wisely I handle this situation. I choose maturity and wisdom over idiocy and childishness."
"Maybe I'm 100% right. It doesn't matter. Relationships are more important than being !RIGHT!
"A Compulsive need to always BE RIGHT AND SHOVE IT IN OTHERS FACES is an addiction I can let go of. It's not winning me any friends, influence or happiness."
"My goal in this situation is not to strut like a banty rooster but to part this contact with both of us feeling good about ourselves and the other person. How can I most contribute to that?"
"I don't need to prove whose is longer. I need to prove my patience, wisdom and maturity."
"I am mature enough to creatively contribute to a deepening relationship instead of pouting or ranting or retaliating. I am mature enough to show my graciousness and flexibility instead of brittleness and arrogance."
"I can be a healer instead of a destroyer."
"I can be redemptive instead of shredding peace and joy."
"I can share maturity and wisdom instead of spreading manure."
"I can spread sharing and caring instead of barbs and stabs."
"I can spread forgiveness and healing instead of wounds and bleeding."
"I can spread comfort and acceptance instead of hurt and rejection."
CERTAINLY QUICK AND HEART-FELT FORGIVENESS IS A CRUCIAL WAY TO LIVE.
When the feelings of forgiveness are not there--CHOOSE FORGIVENESS ANYWAY--REPEATEDLY--EVERYTIME THE THOUGHT COMES UP . . . until there's no longer any 'high-octane ping.'
We all need forgiven. It is crucial we extend what we need and want.
It is eternally crucial.
". . . Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us, Lord."
Cheers.
May your wife respond well to your letter.
Originally posted by angryamerican
Originally posted by BO XIAN
reply to post by angryamerican
May your wife respond well to your letter.
Nope in fact it had the the worst Effect I could imagine.
She informed me she is getting her own place. And we are to each take a hall pass. God I hated that movie now I really cant tolerate it. Part of survival is knowing when you have been beat. My friends thank you all for your advise and encouragement but I am beat. I lay in the dirt blooded and utterly defeated. 20 years of being with her and 18 years of marriage down the tubes.
Originally posted by TXTriker
reply to post by angryamerican
Bo Xian is right. It isn't all you. There was a relationship that you were all part of and everyone has to hold up their part of the relationship. Most people make the mistake of thinking relationships are equally divided. They are not. In marriage it is generally 80/20. Sometimes you have the 80 sometimes you have the 20.
From what you've said you had the 80 for quite some time. Again, I don't know you or your wife but, from the outside, it appears that she couldn't handle her turn at 80%. It is very difficult to change from 20 to 80 if you haven't had to do that very much.
Do not take all the blame on yourself. Don't discount your blame in the situation. Look at everything realistically and then move forward. There is a future and it will be a good one.
Please keep us all posted. We all really do care. Doesn't matter whether we know you or never laid eyes on you. You were willing to post your situation and ask for help. Hopefully some of what some of us has said will help.
Take care.