I lucid dream, every night. I am aware I am dreaming, I think in my dreams... It's quite odd.
It started in June I guess... What people call their "awakening" or whatever. I simply began to realize how superficial my life was, and how I did
not have any "real" control over it. As in, I am a slave to money. This aspect of my life has not changed, since this is America. I also realized
that if I cannot find the light and love inside of myself, I will not find it anywhere. Kind of a cynical bliss/despair at times, I feel. Just
because I TRY to tell others how I feel, and how the world is, and they just either cannot grasp it or they refuse. But slowly others are also seeing
the "big" picture.
My dreams are so vivid, sometimes it is tiring because I don't feel like I got a full night's sleep... Ever. Always tired.
But the moment it started happening... I knew that there is more to this. There is more to everything than we know. We are all connected. It's just
getting that connection working properly which takes effort. Not everyone is able to, I don't think. Obviously, you know these people, who will
never be anything but sheep, will never be able to use this connection. It's about opening the mind. I've actually developed seemingly "psychic"
powers, I guess you would say... During a conversation a name or phrase will pop in my head before the person says it, even when it is unrelated. I
will randomly think of a song that I will later hear hours later (which I feel confirms I am on my right path
).
I've had a few apocalyptic dreams.. The one I can remember clearly is I am outside of my house, which has been abused from war, no windows, no door,
no lights... the trees are gone, no grass, no green... everything is already decrepit. The clouds are heavy, stormy, and everyone around is in a
panic but not violent. All of a sudden, in the horizon where I normally see a nuclear power plant, A funnel cloud type formation spirals down from
the sky, reminding me of something free-falling, and there is a low rumble and a flash of light, and I hear a man yell "HOLY $#!% IT'S HAPPENING, ITS
ACTUALLY HAPPENING, THIS IS IT EVERYONE, THIS IS IT!" And I watch the mushroom cloud rise, and I see the wave of energy coming across the field
towards us, and everyone around me is running for safety, but I know that I cannot save myself, so I just get on the ground, kind of kneeling fetal
position, so my face is looking at the cracks in the ground and I FEEL calm, not angry or scared, just accepting of whats happening. I think to
myself "It is okay, it is okay now, I have done all I can" and all of the screaming and noise stops with a kind of hwaaaaa sound.. as my spirit rises
from my body the nanosecond I die, I watch my flesh burn from by body.... And that's when I wake.
After this dream I was not disturbed... on the contrary, I was actually relieved that, even in my dream situation I found peace within myself.. It
gave me a lot of hope that when I do have my last moment that I will have the same strength in my own self.
sorry for the tangent or if i was not exactly answering your question correctly. The brain is always in a different world
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15-11-2011 by phaesporia63incarnate because: rewording a few bits