Confessions of a Wild Grown Witch

I love Nature.
And probably more controversial
I love Demons.

They just got a bad reputation from Christianity, from the 'Dark Ages'.

Daimon or Daemon (Ancient Greek: δαίμων, "god", "godlike", "power", "fate")[1][2] originally referred to a lesser deity or guiding spirit such as the daimons of ancient Greek religion and mythology and of later Hellenistic religion and philosophy.[3] The word is derived from Proto-Indo-European daimon "provider, divider (of fortunes or destinies)," from the root *da- "to divide".[4] Daimons were possibly seen as the souls of men of the golden age acting as tutelary deities, according to entry δαίμων at Liddell & Scott.[5] See also daimonic: a religious, philosophical, literary and psychological concept.

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Very small 'g' but big personality. They're great to have fun conversations with, because they always know what you know. But because of the (very, very) small 'g' it's of course silly to expect them to know more.
They can be very mean.
But also very useful.
The problem is also when you and your Daemon disagree, who's going to win?
It can control your body, even if only temporarily. It can manipulate time and perception, your emotions, the 'story' of your inner monologue.
I am definitely not saying you should do it as intense as I do.

But like the title says: wild grown witch.
When I was little and I was sad I sat between the trees and let them comfort me.
I always preferred animals to humans.
My mother was a total Hippie, a late comer, but she embraced it, with esoteric and 420, Tarot was totally normal for me as far as I can remember back. Nobody knows who my father was and she got divorced 3 times, so obviously there's a prize to pay... lol sorry
Anyhoo, the 'supernatural' basically was always the most normal thing for me. There's never been a question in my mind that there is more.

This huge gap between us and God is full of Life. In multiple layers. You can feel that when you're moving about, the 'mood' of a place, when no other people are around. Or at least not in 'interaction'. Which is always where all the magic happens: when interaction takes place.
Or how they figured out how to hear the voices of plants.
Personality is where the distinction happens though, between a place and an intelligence.
I mean I don't really know, mind you, I called them demons to lead you, Dear Reader, down this path. I would be perfectly happy to acknowledge the microcosm builds us physically and mentally.
As a possibility. But I feel like Occam would probably say: that's likely.
Doesn't make it true.

ALIEN!s of course would be a different story than the tiny 'g' big personality entities in this train of thoughts.
As it's entirely possible many other things could be true at the same time.
It's a ZOO!
In a zoo the lion doesn't stop to exist, just because you look at the giraffe.

The End

Soundtrack: if Lynch would have made stranger things

a reply to: Peeple

So whats your take on the Guardian of the Threshold? I have met him 1000's of times since the 2nd grade. I last saw him in January 2019 as he hasn't returned since. I never new whom he was until 2022. Prior to that I referred to him as the "Hoodie". He doesn't say anything he just stares. It has no face or hands or feet. I feel its male instead of female.


Guardian of the Threshold

You probably "love" them because they are the only type of entity that is willing to pay any type of attention to you... Imo, It's a very selfish, lonely, mistaken, and pitiful perspective.

I guess that for some people a "deamon" is better than nothing. Sad as it sounds.

A deamon that is looking to establish contact with these averagely low level beings called "humans" is nothing but a sad and lame pet parasite. A bottom feeder.

a reply to: Waterglass2023

Yeah no I'm talking about sthg more individual. More companions where everybody has a buddy aka 'light body' though I find that very misleading. It's a shadow of a mind.
I never had any real hallucinations, not even on shrooms.
The hills were just fluffier. The world even more beautiful, but that was kind of it.

I think the difficulty in focusing on any pre-made model is that it limits you out of the gate.
Things often don't need a name and a background story right away.
All of those entities are just costumes we allow other entities to use against us.

a reply to: ltrz2025

Thanks for the judgement.
You would really be the last person I'd want attention from.
The absolute last

a reply to: Peeple

Thanks for the compliment.

Thx for sharing. That was interesting.

I wonder about what there is to find here (earth), at least there's a lot of good music.

I've been through some things in my lifetime that are somewhat similar to your experiences.

I didn't really grow up with the nomenclature you employ, but I'm learning new things everyday.

When I was in my early twenties I had a profound break from reality and was subsequentially diagnosed with schizophrenia.

I've heard voices from a very young age, but they were always kind and grandmotherly and offered sound advice, lessons and asked me to draw pictures for them. They were very sweet and kind, and I felt like they were extended family.

I was also a very lonely child who didn't really "fit in" with the other kids and their games and explorations so I would frequently find myself alone in nature exploring, observing and taking in the wonders and mysteries of the Natural World.

I once asked my Father about magic, and he became very upset and scolded me that we did not practice magic in this household, but now that I am older I realize what kidn of magic he meant. My mom introduced me to shows like Mary Poppins, Bewitched, I Dream of Jeannie and other such stories to help "instruct" me on proper and practical concepts related to the magical world.

Long story short, over the years and through my travels I found myself surrounded by magical peoples who were, in no light sense of the word, very rude and cruel. I won't bore you with my trials, and these days we have a mutal respect between one another and the psychic attacks and torment has ceased for the most part.

I guess I have "the gift" "the touch" or whatever you want to call it, but I've found little insight into what I know and practice personally and the majority of published works on the subject. I tend to stray away from more formalized ritual magics, I don't summon (things come to me as they see fit of their own accord) and I generallty just "let things do as they will" and appreciate the Natural Cycles of the world as it governs itself.

There are times the garden needs weeding, and times the house needs cleaning, but it's relatively simple stuff.

Because of the way I was raised, I am still somewhat a novice in matters of the Arts, and our local community is very closed for the most part, prefering to stay within familiar company and I am frequently regarded as an outsider.

I've been "invited" into certain circles, but they are very intense and much more intensive and dangerous for what I believe my natural aptitudes allow for, but I have a strong desire to connect with and share notes with other Magickal Peoples because I just feel more at home in a world full of all sorts of interesting beings and insights the majority of folks don't seem to notice or interact with.

I have had my fill of dangerous, negative and distructive and abusive tricksters and would love to commune further about your experiences as you strike me as a good person.

Would you be willing to engage in polite discussion here in thread or privately via U2U?

I'd love to touch base! I'm starving for community!

originally posted by: Peeple
a reply to: ltrz2025

Thanks for the judgement.
You would really be the last person I'd want attention from.
The absolute last

Well these entities, or jinn, are known to hate humans with an immense passion.
They only succomb to your will begrudgingly because they are tricking you into eternal servitude to them when you leave this temporal reign.
This is why witches and shamans all go insane later in their lives as the jinn devour their essence.
I am witnessing this in the form of a once considered intelligent witch who is now going batsheet crazy who talks to a rock that looks like it has 6 witch heads in it.
Talks to the rock and sits on her roof and talks to the sky.

And now hates me with a passion for telling her of the love of Yah and forgiveness.

I have witnessed this with others who sought these jinn as spiritual guides and thought they had power over these daemons.

So for a few years these people get to call out jinn for cheap parlor tricks.
In the end they serve these jinn for eternity.
Not a good trade imo

a reply to: GENERAL EYES

I also don't hear voices.
And I don't mind if we use psychosis and schizophrenia as cover so the muggles feel happy and superior, lol
But to me it's really just the inner dialogue and 'stories' that get 'hijacked'.
The difficulty in all of it is you can't convey it, you'd have to live it.
I will never fully understand what you are going through, be aware of your thoughts.
Do you have an inner dialogue? That thread about it was yours, right?
Does what you see in any way fit symbolically into your inner talking, or where you are emotionally?
I mean you live with it anyways, why Not experiment and analyse the # out of it?

You're really cool, there's nothing 'wrong' with you. Just different.

a reply to: Nevercompromise

I have witnessed this with others who sought these jinn as spiritual guides and thought they had power over these daemons.

Which is not what I'm doing. I don't need to have power to enjoy company.
But yes that's part of the communication problem when you're just a dick they'll let you know.
Which might be of interest to you: is the case in all social interactions.

originally posted by: Nevercompromise
Well these entities, or jinn, are known to hate humans with an immense passion.

It's not so much "hate", but they have a function. Just like bacteria turns water and food toxic, these astral parasite are there to act as some sort of barriers for the losers who need to escape reality because they don't tolerate it. You are right on everything else.

Well, at least you aren't bitter and defensive about it

originally posted by: Peeple
a reply to: Nevercompromise

I have witnessed this with others who sought these jinn as spiritual guides and thought they had power over these daemons.

Which is not what I'm doing. I don't need to have power to enjoy company.
But yes that's part of the communication problem when you're just a dick they'll let you know.
Which might be of interest to you: is the case in all social interactions.

Yes.
I find it immensely important that they have micro dosed people with dmt so they can sustain themselves in that realm and have been able to map the world and identify the same beings from multiple and isolated experiences.

This world certainly exists and by all accounts it is best to remain ignorant of it as much as possible.
Familiar spirits are real and certainly not benign.
They have purpose

originally posted by: ltrz2025

originally posted by: Nevercompromise
Well these entities, or jinn, are known to hate humans with an immense passion.

It's not so much "hate", but they have a function. Just like bacteria turns water and food toxic, these astral parasite are there to act as some sort of barriers for the losers who need to escape reality because they don't tolerate it. You are right on everything else.

a reply to: Nevercompromise

It's not a "world", its literally a gutter of moronic and materialistic minds. It should be called "LoserLand".

a reply to: Peeple

Well, it's complicated.

Ever since I had my break (the voices were overwhelming and all sorts of dark occultic stuff was happening to me and I couldn't keep up with how intensely the storylines were going) I've been more or less disabled. I've tried going back to work but I am so sensitive that I easily become overwhelmed.

Since this happened, I've been on a journey trying to re-establish my personal power and more or less go un-noticed by the ones who abuse their gifts to torment others.

It's very common for me to self analyze and I lose sleep over it frequently.

I've had to accept the dark and light aspects of myself, and keep them in check.

My dark side is a very bad, bad place and I don't like the company there.

I guess I'm at a point in my journey where I just need to touch base with others who are open to discussing these sorts of things in a casual environment.

I've been fretting endlessly over what to do with myself today and your thread was like an answer to my prayers!

I've been trying to write a happy ending but I've been stuck on a loop for several years and breaking out of routine can be difficult for me.

It's defnitely an interesting journey.

a reply to: Peeple

I never had any real hallucinations, not even on shrooms.

Yeah no kidding...

I can't say what i wish, but shrooms don't take the cacke when it comes to hallucinogenics...

Maybe people with affinity to these worlds don't have to dwell in the illusion for long, and just go to the threshold if the dose is right...

And then there is the spirit molecule...

Appart from that, I see where you coming from, but fail to see where you're going to...

originally posted by: ltrz2025
a reply to: Nevercompromise

It's not a "world", its literally a gutter of moronic and materialistic minds. It should be called "LoserLand".

I may have improperly expressed what I tried to explain.
The world and entities seen in a dmt experience has been mapped and the entities identified by multiple and different people worldwide while micro dosing dmt over long periods of time in order to map that "world" seen from a dmt experience

originally posted by: Nevercompromise

originally posted by: Peeple
a reply to: ltrz2025

Thanks for the judgement.
You would really be the last person I'd want attention from.
The absolute last

Well these entities, or jinn, are known to hate humans with an immense passion.
They only succomb to your will begrudgingly because they are tricking you into eternal servitude to them when you leave this temporal reign.
This is why witches and shamans all go insane later in their lives as the jinn devour their essence.
I am witnessing this in the form of a once considered intelligent witch who is now going batsheet crazy who talks to a rock that looks like it has 6 witch heads in it.
Talks to the rock and sits on her roof and talks to the sky.

And now hates me with a passion for telling her of the love of Yah and forgiveness.

I have witnessed this with others who sought these jinn as spiritual guides and thought they had power over these daemons.

So for a few years these people get to call out jinn for cheap parlor tricks.
In the end they serve these jinn for eternity.
Not a good trade imo

Yes, that's what cults typically do. Some invoke jinns, others invoke aliens, but always some amount of eternal servitude being traded by the priest for favors. Except they trade other people, acolytes and sycophants and helpless children and thus power is exchanged. Yours is no different from hers, if you actually knew what all the rituals are supposed to do.