Some interesting stuff has been happening lately.
I felt happy to get back to work after Reconciliation Day. I really enjoy the team we have at the company I've been working for. I had been patiently
waiting a couple of months most specifically to work with them. They have lots of work coming up, and I've learned so much with this crew. I have
garnered some priceless insights, and a friend I look up to has been giving me a ride each day. I love him and admire the way about him.
It was good to recharge my batteries for a couple of months. My supervisor felt disappointed with the setbacks on upcoming sites that were coming up.
There's high demand for rodbusters at moment. There's work, I preferred to rest. I was hopeful that I could enjoy my blessings atm and grow with the
guys where I was working. It was unclear when things would pick up.
I have had plenty of time to examine the probabilities moving forward and felt confident in my plans. I am willing to fight a losing battle for what
matters to me.
That being said, a part of me is very naive. I know this and question myself on the regular, lol. I see many things, but I guess it depends what you
look at. My perceptions are curious.
For a variety of reasons, I am at my limits financially. I'm willing to sacrifice a lot and have been patient with my goals to get out of debt. As
long as I work safe and look after myself, my career has opportunities to money up quickly.
It can be painful though. I'm in a vulnerable position. I've cut right down to the bone with my plans. I've been tempted to take up opportunities I'd
rather not, and understand that for many the scales have been tipping all over the place.
The last couple of years have pushed people's limits on all levels, at an accelerated pace. The winds are shifting quickly, it's prudent to practice
being proactive about weathering the storm.
After time off, I planned on working some hospitality on the weekends. I love relationships and felt it would be a good way to enjoy that scene while
boosting my budget. Each of the holidays fell on weekdays, and I would most likely be getting tons of hours at work anyways.
My mom is a rock and has bent over backwards to help me. I've been through a lot, and she worries about me pushing my limits. Thing is, you never know
how tall you are until you're in over your head
I procrastinated for a few months, talking to her. Idk, I talked to a therapist who reassured me. The key point I got out of the conversation was that
I could feel confident talking to her first before working on the weekends.
Part of the reason I held back was that I had more debt than I told her about. I feel close to her, though some past events have gone dramatically
wrong in unexpected ways before.
It's hard being me sometimes, unfortunately, it limits the way I express myself around her. When most feel I'm making questionable decisions I have
ended up at the hospital. Others' concern for my sanity and well-being puts me under fire. It's hard not to blame them sometimes.
It's disappointing for me, I don't believe in suicide or killing. They always tend to put me in there for extended periods, and I get the impression I
make some of the staff fearful.
That hurts. Fortunately, those who remember me, have often brightened my spirits and inspired me to make the most of the situation. Last time, a
bizarre twist may have taken away from that.
When I talked to my mom about working on the weekends, she was supportive and it went much better than I had imagined. I was looking forward to
getting back to ironworking and expanding my budget/network on the weekends. My plan looked good.
There have been many challenges on my mind, and this Thanksgiving was a great opportunity to share with my family those thoughts more casually. I tend
to run around like a chicken with my head cut off, so it's good to stop and smell the roses.
One of the issues I was going to raise was vaccination. My friend who gives me a ride had encouraged me to consider taking up some of this mRNA
tech.
I don't want him to feel uncomfortable, not that he should be. That's besides the point however, I made my mind up to talk to him after work, after
the long weekend.
Relaxing after dinner, I noticed the pub down the street was looking for help. Awesome, I called over there. Do they have a vaccine mandate in the
workplace or is it just the health order?
My understanding is that in B.C. patrons are supposed to have a passport, but not the staff.
The individual I talked to, told me that as far as he knew, vaccination was required to enter the premises. He told me WorkSafe was looking to
implement that in November. I thanked him and said I didn't want to waste anyone's time applying if working at the pub wasn't for me.
Interesting what he said, I hadn't heard about WorkSafe changing its policy. I went online and took a look at their website. Looks like they are
implementing it for their own staff. Iirc, they had measures in place to support people who decided to become vaccinated and experienced injury. I
liked that, I hadn't heard of employers being there for employees in a scenario like that.
Imo, cognitive dissonance is going to be par for the course of the pandemic and I've noticed the energy of Mercury Retrograde at play.
When I saw him next, he asked me about vaccination. I told him, it's not for me and waiting. He told me he wouldn't be able to give me a ride after
the next week. I told that's ok, and I understand.
I'm surprised he asked me about that but marvelled at the timing. I've been vocal expressing myself the whole time about what's going on. I toned it
right down since the spring, though remain sincere.
I felt bad looking back, there is so much I want to say about the topic, but supporting others trumps that for me. While we were talking I asked him
if he thought his vaccination status was permanent?
I caught him off guard and raised some uncomfortable questions about that. I made it brief when I realized I was talking from ego. He wasn't
interested in getting any booster shots.
In the short term, I feel individuals of my persuasion options may very well become more limited. Flexibility, creativity, discipline and integrity
are key traits dealing with the rain. My aspirations to work weekends may be short-sighted.
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