my anxiety is so bad i feel like i am crawling out of my skin

i hate it...the # that goes on in my head is torture. i am tormented all the time.

so today at 1 i have to go to the company i start with on monday and fill out my papers and get put in the system so i can punch in...thats it.

i am crazy nervous/anxious about this and there is no reason for it. ive already interviewed. i was already told i have the job and have my start day/time....
this waiting till 1 # is driving me crazy....i always start to over think everything. what if in the 4 days since we last talked they hired someone else? what if this and what if that?

no good reason for it but i do it anyway....
nothing helps this either. been on various meds over the years and nothing works...
i get so worked up and anxious/agitated about # for no reason...i cant sit still. i basically stare at the clock till its time to go....

inner torment

a reply to: TinySickTears

What about exercise? If you need help by all means get it.

We humans are an odd bunch. You know you are all set, but something in your head is bugging you. EVERYONE has this. But yours sounds like it is being a pain in the ass right now.

Have you tried Russian sage? Look it up.

White sage is also shown some favorable effects.
www.smokableherbs.com...

a reply to: seasonal

never heard of it...will look it up
thanks

a reply to: TinySickTears

I added a link, I have never used any sage. I use exercise, and it work for me. But everyone is different, I know people who work on a car, do wood working, drink, smoke, and the list just gets weird from there.

You owe it to yourself to find a release that works for you. Good luck, I hope you find it.

a reply to: TinySickTears

Exercise man.

Put yourself through pain that that anxiety cant hold a candle to. All the while, morph yourself into what you want to be.

Find some inspiration in training videos... check out some pro boxers like Floyd Mayweather Jr, take a look at their ego and self-esteem, take some notes.

Cardio. Run.

a reply to: TinySickTears

Scale 1-10 set your anxiety during the day, when it is over 8 what were you thinking?

a reply to: tikbalang

dude my anxiety gets up there for # that should not be an issue at all

I just started Effexor for my anxiety about 6 or 7 weeks ago and it has helped tremendously. I get the generic extended release and it's only $10 a month.

a reply to: avgguy

Could I ask you the same question?

a reply to: TinySickTears


In these forums, you present yourself as an articulate, competent, and likeable person.
If you can do it here then you can hold it together for a little 20 minute meeting.
You can hold your breath that long, can't you?
I get that you feel your anxiety more acutely than some other people but
interviews make everyone anxious and suck worse than actually going to work.
This is the pizza gig right? They want you to work for them and are looking
forward to meeting you.
I know nothing I've said is a magic tonic to cure what ails you but I'm
low on tonic. You are going to be fine.

Ia reply to: tikbalang

It's never over 8 now that I take an snri, but before I couldn't think that all because so many things were going through my head at the same time.

a reply to: TinySickTears

do you like to read?

there is an author, Alan Watts, who has a book called, "The Wisdom Of Insecurity". I found it very useful. If nothing else, its a fascinating book. And, gives your mind something constructive to ruminate on.

Good Luck

a reply to: TinySickTears

My own therapy is kind of different of what is usually recommended. I play a game called Sins of a Solar Empire. The game is complicated but it absorbs all your attention, you hardly will be able to think about other things. I've been playing it for years and it works like a charm for me. You can get it from Steam, not expensive.

a reply to: TinySickTears

Does your anxiety come with the chance of failure?

a reply to: TinySickTears
Stay busy, play your bass, do some exercise (I get on the treadmill everyday for a fast walk, 21 minutes does me good), think of the paycheck. I know how you feel, I really do. At worst just put on a facade and smile thru the rough stuff on day 1, everyday after that will be easier.

a reply to: TinySickTears

Have you ever tried taking benedryl? I know it sounds kinda crazy, but I have found that if I start getting that feeling like I'm about to spiral off into the panic attack oblivion, I can take a benedryl, and it stops it. It just chills me right out.

Now, if I do this more than, say, twice per month, it becomes ineffective due to my body getting too used to it.

You can get a whole bottle of like, 60 pills for a couple of bucks if you buy a generic brand at Walmart - so it's cheap enough - under the name Diphenhydramine (thats probably misspelled, but it is pronounced die-fen-high-druh-mean.

Worst case scenario if you give it a try is that it will make you sleepy. But when I'm really anxious, it just takes me down a notch, instead of knocking me out.

Eta: I understand... It is so frustrating trying to rationalize and talk your brain out of feeling this way. I feel like I'm always telling myself "Don't get your panties is such a bunch! This is NOTHING to feel anxious about! Stop doing that! It makes no sense!" It sucks.

I suffer from anxiety as well. It's caused me to go to the ER a few times and yell at the doctors because I believed I forsure had a brain tumor when it was just a headache. It's affected me in sex because I would go limp as soon as I try to enter my partner vaginally, my inner voices tells me she wouldn't be satisfied enough of my size and the negativity takes over and I go limp. I've had panicm, heart attacks just opening for a gig.

At first I thought it was just low testosterone so I took ZMA and exercise but even with higher testosterone, the negative voices are still there. I've learned that 99% of the mind chatter going on in my head is bs, but it still affects me some days depending on the mood, diet, etc. If anyone knows any meds that'll stop the bogus mind chattering please let me know.

originally posted by: ezramullins
a reply to: TinySickTears


In these forums, you present yourself as an articulate, competent, and likeable person.
If you can do it here then you can hold it together for a little 20 minute meeting.
You can hold your breath that long, can't you?
I get that you feel your anxiety more acutely than some other people but
interviews make everyone anxious and suck worse than actually going to work.
This is the pizza gig right? They want you to work for them and are looking
forward to meeting you.
I know nothing I've said is a magic tonic to cure what ails you but I'm
low on tonic. You are going to be fine.

no this is not the pizza gig. its in a quality control spot. the thing is i already interviewed. this i just me filling out tax forms and getting into the clock so i can start monday at 6.
once i get there i will be fine...the anxiety will be gone...it is just the lead up to it....still 2 hours away...

originally posted by: JSR
a reply to: TinySickTears

do you like to read?

there is an author, Alan Watts, who has a book called, "The Wisdom Of Insecurity". I found it very useful. If nothing else, its a fascinating book. And, gives your mind something constructive to ruminate on.

Good Luck

huge reader. between my wife and i we have a couple thousand books....i will look into this one
thanks

Try just letting go.

I know that sounds so simple and yet can be the hardest thing to do, but try anyway.

Sit down comfortably, close your eyes, let your body relax and just let go of it.

I had something bothering me for well over a year. I needed help around the house but couldn't bear the thought of having someone in going through my stuff, judging me, disrupting things. Well, the lady has just left after her third visit and I've been enjoying a pristine home and no more sleepless nights worrying about it.

I left her to get on with it, too. Whatever noises I heard, I stayed where I was and trusted her to do the job. Just relaxed and let go...

You can turn yourself around, don't be stubborn like me. Don't talk yourself out of a good idea because you're dwelling on the negatives. Trust yourself and other people and focus on the positives and a good result.

You did well to get to this stage of the job. Hold your nerve and take the next step in a happy, relaxed and confident state of mind - because you can.

ETA - I think I went a bit beyond your current situation, but it's sound advice for anyone who's feeling anxious so I'll leave it as it is.