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reply to post by DayKnightmare
I think, generally I have kind of "lost" them, they have given up on me?
BUT, I have also lost a LOT.
I used to go out, and be happy, and have a lot of people over, friends, have a real "life".
Now, because of my lack of trust of ANYONE< I have zero life at all. I am completely isolated and never leave the house. I make no new friends, and ignore the old ones etc. Like I said before, I won't even answer the phone, and I don't fall for ANY bait, no matter how big, little, or innocent.
I had an awesome career, and just up and left it before they could take it away, like grabbing the gun from them and shooting myself kind of.
I used to be beautiful, and now I hacked all of my hair off, and wear no make up (Brittney Spears, Shinaed O'konner)
I dress like well, like an invisible person, wear hats and hide in every way possible.
I used to shine and light up every room I entered, now I hide in the corner etc.
They took away all of my potential, and well, I have been in hiding for a good 5 years, and want my OWN life, not just MY life back, but also every thing they took from me, and to go back onto the path of my full potential, the path they stole. If that makes any sense.
Real or not.. remember or not.. dont let others control and destroy you. FDont let YOURSELF destroy you. Thats no way to live, dear. Life is so utterly short... this time youre in is the only shot you have at THIS time. Live it. Its definitely the best revenge.
reply to post by Spantsa
Thank you for the references, I will look into it.
Yes, I am scared to know too much, and wish I could just get back the good stuff, like school plays, and choir and friendships etc.....edit on 19-12-2013 by hidingthistime because: (no reason given)