Now, I may be a little different than you average ATS'er. I accept the paranormal, and in fact I embrace it. How ever I also feel the need to take a scientific approach and remain unbiased until the evidence provides the answer.
I'm not trying to be mean, but after lurking for soo long, and seeing so many stories, I have to ask you some questions and perhaps they may help you
as well. Please try not to take any offense.
I'm going to start with the memory, of your childhood. Our minds are very impressionable as children, as well it may at times be hard to decipher
fact from fiction, especially in some of our dreams. Is it at all possible you dreamed this, or misinterpreted it? I'm aware given the experiences
you mention previously, they could perhaps jostle another particularly mind bending scenario.
As well, why do you feel your family was into the occult? Define occult, because depending on who you ask the occult could be heavy metal, pornography
and politicians. As well it could encompass dark ritual magick, which isn't the type I typically associate with peace loving hippies. Again, I'm not
trying to belittle, or discredit your story, just trying to get a grasp.
How long did the experiences in you adult life take place? Are they currently happening?
Can anyone else add their own experiences to the situation? Have you thought to tell these things to go away, little boy included?
Now this is where the unusual ATS'r comes out, I'm also going to approach this skeptically. I will tell you before I begin, that I have had
paranormal experiences. Some I've explained away as trick of mind, sleep deprevation, or non paranormal occurence, or in some cases truly
So, please don't take it the wrong way.
Have you or anyone in your family ever suffered from any kind of health issues, mental or otherwise. Certain diseases, and health
issues(diabetes,highbloodpressure etc.) Have been known to cause hallucinations. Tumors can cause hallucinations. Obviously, mental health issues can
cause delusions and hallucinations. I am not saying this to discredit or insult you in any way, and for credibility sake it's a logical explanation
if the means is there. If there is history, even anxiety disorders it may be worth having a doctor check you out, just to be safe. I mean I would
rather find out I don't have something wrong with me, then look to the paranormal. This doesn't make it any less unnerving but too many individuals
do suffer unknowingly. As well, if you had a tumor it's pretty good to get it checked out. I merely say this because I literally thought i lost my
mind a few years back, whether it was the ocurrances I was dealing with or not I got checked out. You don't necessarily have to say I see dark
creepies in my house because they will most certainly medicate you but you can say you've noticed some odd things.
I quite literally dumbd down my instance and said I was seeing shadows, flickers of light, and that I might be letting my imagination get the best of
me. I explained that I was starting to get paranoid but it could be because I was looking to much into things. Ultimately what solved the issues for
me was moving, but I found out I'm as sane as anyone else walking around ha ha. Please don't take what I said as a joke, or intended to be mean, but
when all the evidence is considered what ever is left how ever improbable must be the answer.
I understand your terror in all this, and I've had both truly remarkable experiences, and some not so remarkable logically explained instances.