posted on Sep, 25 2012 @ 06:09 PM
Brilliant! I love it two times! I used to listen to rap back in high school and a little after pretending to be gangsta, smoking drinking fighting all
just because, felt like the world owed me something. But it didn't I owed the world something, if nothing else I owed it to atleast leave the world
as It was when I entered it. Even if it was jacked up back then to it was still better then now. I owed it to my parents that broke their back making
sure I had the chances they didn't even though I never took them.
I thought it was cool to hang out in the hood 6 & mound chillin with freak all night partying. Then started hearing about friends being shot some
killed even then I though never happen to me I'm gansta to the core ain't never scared. Lol till I was the one with the gun in my face, them .38
specials look alot bigger down a barrel. Oddly enough that was t enough to keep me from going,just be a little less reckless.
It took getting arrested twice(nothing serious) within a month for things to click, hours of community service among court fines probation, drug and
alcohol test, anger management, substance abuse class's 35 days in jail and having my probation officer tell me she was recommending the longest jail
term possible for my crime to the the judge. That was Wayne county, MI the home of Detroit city. Needless to say I was a 19 year old white male from a
upper middle class city #ting his pants. Play time got real!
All that for trying to be cool livin the lyrics of the latest craze in rap. Hindsight is 20/20, lookin back at my life and all the opertunities that
were at my feet and I just walked away. Aside from my kids there is nothing I wouldn't give to get a redo.
Now I am fortunate to have a decent job that I'm not qualified for but achieved thru hard work and determination to better myself and my family. Pays
not what it should be but I can't go anywhere to get the position I have they would just laugh at me, cause I never went to college. My life was out
on hold for many years by the time I got my head straight my friends were already done with school, buying houses, having kids, getting married, have
nice things, and I had nothing, I didn't even have a good reason to convince somebody to give me a chance. So I understand when he talks about the
loop it's very easy to fall back in especially if your surrounded by it.
Sorry not trying to derail or troll or whatever else, it's something I haven't talked about in a long time and I'm finally getting to the light at
the end of the tunnel. I fear for children these days, I mean this warship of celebrities and how good you look, everything it's just so much
bombarding them and most families have two working parents so no one is always there to keep tabs on them or just distracted themselves with life. Any
how good to see people doing something positive.