posted on Jun, 9 2012 @ 01:15 AM
reply to post by MeesterB
there would be hope yet and plenty of time to find the right one, and all that, but I really can't stress enough just how special this girl is. Its
very rare to find a travelling folk singer with a free spirit who's into what i'm into (against terms and conditions) in this place. I don't get
out much to pubs or actively try to meet people, I stumbled upon her by chance. Sure, there may be others, but this was my last good shot at
experiencing something while I am in my prime, while the bodies are youthful and how do you say... not dried up and used. I may find someone later in
life. I had given up on ever experiencing that 'young love' mushy #, here it was and it was perfection. In one night all previous experiences had
become irrelevant, I wanted to burn all my sad songs and write some new ones with this feeling in mind. Thank goodness I didnt burn them!
having had a bit of time to reflect on it, really all I did wrong was drink too much. I never said anything too extreme, I didnt say I loved her or
any of that crap, I just said i was feeling very happy and had a new hope that this could be something. I never asked her to commit to anything. She
has misunderstood or infered that, freaked out and shut the door on it. Its actually pretty disappointing really, we get along great and there seems
to be no other barrier than fear on her behalf. There are other details that I will spare you of, but she did tell me of an experience that left her
afraid of commitment. This I understand, but really, it was pretty clear that I was just happy to be in her company and I don't believe I was
forceful or rushed. Yes, in some ways I guess I was, but I was just drunk and we could have at least talked about it, rather than her being
condescending to me and then sending a text... meh... At the end of the day I still had my fun! great success!