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I posted in another thread a while back about how people experience the white light or tunnel and I will post my thought on that here again. I believe that when a person experiences this, it is the bodies vitals starting up again, like a pc restarting and you see the underscore before the computer actually restarts, maybe that is our brain restarting just before we come to.
Originally posted by icepack
reply to post by I think Im normal
do you want this light/tunnel thing, too ?
Sure, it beats the alternative of nothingness, and would give some insight in to there being more to it all, but in my explanation of it, I already had it, and it was temporary, not a constant,
Originally posted by lordpiney
Im sure that im gonna get a bunch of crap over this but...did you ever think that the reason you didn't experience any of the things others describe in their N.D.E's is because your "not religious at all" as you put it? just curious?
Originally posted by I think Im normal
I have been in a dark place for several months now and have been trying to wrap my head around it all and I can not..
First a little back story.
Back on October the 10Th 2011, I went to the hospital to see my orthopedic doctor about my knees. I find out that I have arthritis in both my knees. I said well is there anything we can do for the pain, she says yes, we can give you cortisone shots to help. I said okay, then had to sign a waiver. I get up on the table, she puts the shot in my left knee first all is fine, we are talking and exchanging stories, then she puts the shot in my right knee and I remember saying I'm getting light headed then the next I am waking up.
When I came to I see all these doctors rushing in the room in a blurry haze, all sound distorted like you see in the movie when an explosion happens and the person is to close to it. My Doctor is trying to get my attention, I finally snap to and say, I'm here, i'm here, whats wrong, because I did not understand why all these doctors were around me. The orthopedic doctor tells me that I was out, how she was beating on my chest to try and get my heart started and how she was slapping me in the face trying to get me to respond for over four minutes with no success.
They have it in my medical record as me code bluing. The doctor explained that I had no pulse, was foaming at the mouth and she could hear the gurgling sounds as the oxygen was leaving my lungs.
Present day
Now I have felt down just like anyone else in their life, but ever since this happened and I experienced death first hand, I am having a very hard time getting pasted the fact that I experienced this. I was gone, there was nothing. No thought, Just nothing, that is not what is messing me up, it is the fact that I remember that there was nothing that is. I can not explain the nothing that I experienced.as it is hard to imagine because we think so much as living beings and can not turn off our minds for a split second to comprehend nothingness.
I do no want to make this religious at all, and state that I am not religious in the least, and am not trying to trample on anyone persons beliefs, but merely conveying my own personal experience. With that being said I will try to explain what I am going through.
It is this nothingness that is plaguing me, I am now trying to make sense of it and the only thing I can come up with is that there is no meaning to our existence, and there is no point on doing anything, it is complete chaos and completely meaningless. and we are just trying to create some sort of meaning to blind us from the fact that there is nothingness waiting for each and everyone of us when we die, yet some like to think that there is something grander to it all to try and bring some type of order to the chaos.
We get 50 to 100 years if we are lucky, and in those years we feed ourselves lies, for what? Do we lie to ourselves for the sake of a just in case? I do not understand this, Even though I have felt the grasp of nothingness, maybe it is for the sake of just in case that I do not just end it now. I do not know why I continue on as if there is some point to it all, I just do.
So you see. I am in a dark place, semi emotionless, semi emotional.
I posted in another thread a while back about how people experience the white light or tunnel and I will post my thought on that here again. I believe that when a person experiences this, it is the bodies vitals starting up again, like a pc restarting and you see the underscore before the computer actually restarts, maybe that is our brain restarting just before we come to.
Anyway, I thought I would share my darkness for no apparent reason, maybe you know something I do not or have some insight in to what I am experiencing.
Originally posted by prisoneronashipoffools
Well OP I am not going to knock your experience or you, but I find it strange that you "experienced" the nothingness, because if you experienced it that means there was some form of consciousness or something. Otherwise, you wouldn't experience it or remember it, you would have just gone out and then woke up after you came back, like when you sleep and don't remember your dreams.
Originally posted by iforget
reply to post by I think Im normal
I wonder, do you have children? In so many ways our children are pieces of ourselves that have the capability of continuing our existence long after we have passed . Is there a meaning there? I don't know but I do think it is something more than nothing. Other than that it is also true that in time the flesh of our bodies will be absorbed and redistributed by the ecosystem.
And then there is always today to make the best we can of. Enjoy
R
Originally posted by nicolet
reply to post by I think Im normal
hello,
I have been in limbo for five years now, going through the ascension process. although my story is different than yours i understand your reaction to the feeling of nothingness. it took me about 3 years to adjust to and accept it as part of life. i was like an animal in a cage for a very long time and well today it just makes sense. i can't imagine life being any other way. it answers a lot of questions to life if you allow yourself to really really explore it.
it can open you up to a whole new reality that yes forces you to accept that there is no meaning to life (meaning only exists with the ego) but at the same time opens you up to life being something that is so much more and so much better. pure creation. unlimited possibility. this is really where our true power lies being able to see this and understand this and connect to this.
if you can see your experience as a gift and explore what it means instead of getting lost in what you now have to let go of related to how you used to view life it can be a really great opportunity to expand your sense of self and your perspective on life.