To all you above posters and for the future below...
I have been in your shoes.
You are not alone.
I have had the exact same sentiments as all you have stated.
It is truly hard to come to grips with what you now understand that most don't.
But try hard to remember there are people that are just like you...(me for instance)
It is truly mind boggling what the truth does to your mind.
It has ruined relationships for me, and started new ones.
It has truly changed my life.
For all you who think that you are the only one that feels this way, you are not.
It is truly hard to talk to normal people, "sheeple" if you will...
They will only talk if they want to know the real truth.
Most don't want to know.
Most only care about what is on tv.
Most are blindly following the true temptations in life.
It's truly ashame.
But do NOT single yourself out!
Be strong in that you understand what most people don't!
You have a clear idea of the world around you and are not distracted!
That sets you apart from the crowd...
In my humble opinion, there is a war going on as we speak...
A war on your mind, body and soul. (I don't care if you believe me, its my opinion)
There is definitively good and evil, and right now evil is rampant.
Look around! If you choose not to see it, it's truly your own minds demise.
Good is patiently waiting for the opportunity for you to embrace it.
You will be tested and you must remain calm.
Anxiety only comes when you feel despair.
Fear not, for there is nothing to be anxious about!
With good preparations for any circumstance, comes serenity.
But for me, as a believer in God, it is harder to stay on the straight and narrow...
Then to take the easy way out.
It is a constant battle, I feel.
Don't let evil take over how strong your mind can be!
Remember, you are welcome here on ATS to discuss anything that ails you.
Feel free to PM me if you have questions or just need another mind to speak to.