So as I was walking home from my mother's boyfriends house today, roughly around 10 p.m GMT+1 (European Time), when I suddenly, by complete accident,
stepped on a fallen bird. I immidiately jumped forward out of complete surprise (I thought I had stepped on a rat or something). It started screeching
and jumping back and forth with whatever power it had left. It was horrible. It sort of reminded me of a broken toy that had gone nuts. Sorry if that
sounds like a heartless description, but I just can't think of a better one.
I was in complete shock. I would never ever
even think of intentionally hurting a bird, or any animal for that matter. And the worse part is, I
made it suffer. I really don't know what it was doing on the ground in the first place, but I didn't see it as it was somewhat dark, and I wasn't
really looking at the path in detail.
Anyway to get to the point, and the reason why I made this thread, is because I just felt totally horrible. I just made this poor bird suffer, and
probably in the worst possible way. It looked somewhat mutilated when I went back to look at it, as it layed there completely motionless. I felt
horrible. I didn't know what to think.
Should I have put it out of its misery by stomping on it ? What should I have done? I have a very weak heart, so I just couldn't see myself doing
something like that. What should I have done differently ? I just stood there in complete shock and watched it suffer. I didn't know what to do.
I couldn't think of anything else but just asking for its forgiveness. I really felt that horrible. My heart was just torn. I went back to look at the
poor little bird, and as I asked for it's forgiveness, I thought I could see its eyes glare. I almost felt like crying
Did I comitt a sin ? Should I have put it out of its misery immidiately ? Should I have done anything differently ?
I just really feel horrible about it. I know there are way worse stuff happening out there, but this really did get to me.
edit on 15-5-2011 by
ZikhaN because: (no reason given)