I find it weird that when you are not careful enough in a relationship and it goes badly, that it may be your fault. But what happens when your so
careful, that you are now pushing people away? It seems like its a double edged sword either way, and frankly is unfair.
Wearing your heart on your sleeve is frowned upon, not sharing your feelings enough is frowned upon, I dont see the in between without being a major
pain in the butt. I dont think that I am complicated person (my opinion of course), and of course I want someone in my life that has the same wants
and needs, but going to fast has never worked for me.
Now I am being told that I am going to slow!? WHAT?? I'm not being pushy or asking for to much, because frankly I have managed alone for a long time.
Now the person I am dealing with (long distance), is wondering why I seem off putting. Actually I am not, I am being careful
, and yes I think
there is a difference.
I listen, I am supportive, so much so he would like me to help manage his band, we are in contact, and by me not wanting to be to needy, I say that I
am busy and cannot talk on the weekends, just so that he can do what he normally does, without feeling pressured.
Where is the limit? I am actually considering both of our feelings, by not being the "typical
" type, and yet I am not being needy enough,
where he feels that he can be supportive of me also. I dont want that... I dont need that. I just want to see it through day to day, and if things
change then I am mentally prepared, realistic, and of course without incident.
BTW, thanks for reading