posted on Apr, 20 2011 @ 09:01 AM
The "is it ME that is haunted" bit caught my attention because I asked myself this question fairly often growing up. No matter where I lived the
same bizarre experiences would follow me - violently shaking bed, things disappearing and re-appearing in the most unlikely places, being freaked out
by an open closet door - to the point where if I fell asleep in a room I'd be jolted awake *only* if the closet door was open, movements out of the
corner of my eye, pets behaving strangely when the activity peaked, and just being gripped by panic and sense of a threatening presence when I seemed
the lease susceptible to paranoia. Most could probably be chalked up to some organic cause, I suppose, but there was no denying that certain places I
lived seemed to feed these energies.
Until my early 20s I just assumed I'd always lived in haunted houses until I started asking myself if it could just be me. Unlike your experience,
no one else - other than various cats, I guess - ever witnessed mine, though no one seemed to doubt that my panic was genuine. In fact, these things
seemed to only "attack" when I was alone, which raises the question - is it just a fear of being alone manifesting itself? I have no way of
knowing, but in 2005 I was convinced that I'd manage to successfully banish these beings or energies or whatever they were to another realm, and all
the problems stopped until recent months when a small-scale version of previous events started recurring. If it IS real it will probably come down to
finding a method that works for you personally, or moving again, to a place where the energy feels "right". I'd recommend using protective
crystals, but with caution, since I've found that they can sometimes capture negative energy and multiply it if not properly cleansed and channeled.
I've also had limited success with what I call a "brain hack" - basically re-wiring one's brain with certain thoughts to override specific
beliefs. For a few months I was completely free of interference when I managed to convince myself that none of it was real, that there were rational
explanations for everything, be it kinetic energy or some other action triggered by my own brain. Unfortunately I couldn't sustain the disbelief and
eventually the problems returned, but it's worth a shot, I think. Just don't feed the negativity by acknowledging it and see if that helps any.
Denial can sometimes be a positive tool...