posted on Apr, 26 2011 @ 09:37 AM
reply to post by Ophiuchus 13
This has been so hard. Things started to happen. I was seeing all these things. All of this "knowledge" was coming to me and I had a straight path.
No confusion, no hate. Only love and knowing.
Then it seemed to stop.
I will confess here, I really believed that I had found the door and was walking the "way". That what you said was true and it was a message for me,
not only me, but me/us/everyone (with eyes and ears to hear and see).
I was overcome with the desire to shine and plant seeds, it seemed my higher self was in control and that was great. It's funny, I keep saying I, but
when in this state everything was a "whole". Not "I" but "we".
My husband kept thinking everything I said and did was out of ego. He thought that I was saying I was better and knew more, but I had no thoughts of
any of that.
So, eventually, in anger, I said that I would give it all up and not see anymore.
Now? Nothing. I take full blame for it, he didn't understand, and I couldn't take that we were so out of harmony.
Ego won out.
I still know stuff, it's not like I am like I was before this transformation, but the true heart knowledge seems gone.