Ok, from the beginning, it should be noted that I have spent most of 10 years in deep states of contemplation/meditation. From a young age I was
emotionally negative, or introspective, as well as empathetic, but not in a sympathetic way, more of a natural connected way. Anyway, as I grew up,
from the age of about 10, I remember being racked with strong feelings of guilt, as well as voices in my mind and other such schitzophrenic/manic
symptoms. I started to repress or control my emotions, and as I grew up I learnt how to control basically every facet of my emotional self. This has
been going on for the better part of 15 years. Every day, every feeling, every impulse, even good feelings, I would hold them back. I am not at a
stage where I can control all of my emotions, as if controlling my "chakras". Anyway, I had reached a point of almost complete desperation, when
something "clicked" in my brain, and I found a state of "emptiness" in the back of my mind, like I unlocked my brain. Anyway, since then, every
thought, every day, every feeling, every day, I would monitor, observe assess. I usually spend the entire day in a state of contemplation, even at
school, at work etc. Over the years, I have come up with many different theories and ideas, and they keep becoming incredibly complex. I am not at the
point, that my thoughts are almost imperceivable to my mind, as if I can just "know" things without thinking. I believe it is on the borderline of the
intelligence level that many E.T.s possess. However, its not a kind of mathematical or practical knowledge, its just like a kind of "just know"
knowledge. Anyway, I am talking about 10 years of what they call "Raja Yoga" (although I was not aware of it at the time) - I also practiced Karate
for many years, and it is from that which I developed an incredibly fast physical reflex, that translates itself into my mind.
Anyway, I have also been able to generate "high density" states, but strangely, I prefer to be in a state of "low density" and have literally been
fighting against the so-called "awakening" - as I was genuinley enlightened before any of the "2012" awakening and "density" teachings were around, my
state of awareness is the same irregardless of whatever "vibrations" are around, and although the change in energy is helping me, it has really been a
case of intensive work.
Now, the question - I was having a rather "hallucinatory" experience (in fact, it is very rare that I have such experiences, most of all my ideas and
perceptions are inside my mind, my view of the outside world is almost perfect 3D) and I saw what appeared to be an alien face materialising in front
of me. I was taken aback, however, I decided to fight my fear and look at the image. I noticed, that strangely, one half of its face was reptillian,
almost scarry, the other half, seemed to be like a kind of peaceful alien creature thingy. I realised, that this "being" was in fact MYSELF on a
higher dimensional plane. One half of me is innocent, child like, and another half of me is actually "dark". I think, that because I have both
lightside/darkside in balance, I can almost be at the same level as these so-called "interdimensional" aliens. I remember sensing some of them, I let
them "see" me and they appeared to be incredibly curious. It seems that our DNA can translate our beings to a higher dimensional plane. I remember
seeing some of my other friends that were at a higher level of awareness, and they translate into these kind of little children, like the little
"greys" that people speak of...
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