Originally posted by nicolee123nd
I sometimes lead myself to believe that I've been cursed.
You are not alone. I think that many people feel like this at times.
Some seem to have more right to feel this way than others, but I guess
that it is relative to our experiences and what each of us can handle.
I personally do not believe that anyone or anything can curse me as
We are each devine beings of lght. We are all equal.
While I was in the hospital, being born, a tragic event happened.
My house that I was supposed to live in set on fire. Not much could be salvaged, including everything I needed to start my life.
I'm really sorry this happened to you and your family.
It would be very difficult to endure a tragedy like this with a newborn.
But also what a blessing that you were not at home yet when the fire occured.
There is no telling what might have happened if you had been home.
It's sad that everything was lost in the fire, but what a blessing that
some how your caretakers were able to get what they needed to care for you.
That is two blessings from one disaster. Or three counting yourself!
I find it funny that when I told one of my friends about this, she called me a "Devil Child".
You are your own best friend and you don't need to accept labels that others carelessly place on you whether they mean well or not. I think that each
of us knows within us that we are sacred beings of light whether we are ready to admit it or not.
If you learn that at 13, you will be far ahead of me as I didn't learn that until I was fairly old.
Within my 13 years of life, I have experienced much sadness.
I agree that you have experienced a lot of sadness for someone as young as you are. I'm really sorry for what has happened to you. But I can see that
you are very insightful and mature for only 13. You seem like a very strong person and you seem to be very caring and thoughtful.
Reading your post has actually helped me to put things into perspective and I thank you for that.
My brother died;
This is so difficult. I have had close relatives die, but this happened when I was older. I knew the reason it was so painful for me was because we
cared for each other so much. Also I knew that they would want me to have the happiest life possible with the time I have left. I also feel blessed
that I knew them for the time that I did. They tought me to cherish the time I had with them as well as the time I have left with others. Even though
they left, I am very blessed to have known them.
I was forced to live with my abusive, alcoholic father for 4 years;
This is a terrible situation for a child to endure. I hope that you have an adult that you can trust who can help you with this. I hope that you can
take this experience and use it as an example of how you do not want to live your life. I really hope that you have an adult to help you with this.
my dog died
I'm really sorry about your dog. Pets come into our lives for a time and bring us lots of happiness. I think they help us to remember to be kind and
compassionate to others while they are with us. If you learn that from your dog, your dog lived a very purposeful life.
my family was split up
This is so difficult. I hope that you have an adult that you can trust who you can talk to about this. Sometimes it's best for a family to split
though, and it may have been for the best.
I have paranoia
Have you been diagnosed with this, or do you feel that you are paranoid? I think that it is unfortunate that society does not allow people to
experience thier natural emotions. I feel that a person has the right to feel strong emotions after experiencing major life altering events. It is
natural to feel sad or worried at times. That being said. I do hope that you have someone that you can trust who is helping you with this.
another house (which was haunted) caught on fire
It sounds like no one was hurt or killed in this fire. That is very fortunate. I hope that the adults in your home will take a look at why these fires
may have occured and take actions to prevent them in the future. Please be sure to put a smoke alarm in your room somewhere up high and be sure it has
a working battery at all times.
my family struggles with money
If you pay attention to how your family works and spends money, you may be able to see a way that you can improve your situation once you are on your
own. That being said, I know from experience that people need very little to live a happy and meaningful life. I have learned to live very nicely with
very little. I am thankful that I am not living a life that depends on posessions to be happy, as that is not true happiness.
and so on. Things just never seem to go my way, and that's coming from the heart.
I have felt that way too, but now I am happy for everything that I have experienced because I feel like I learned a lot from my experiences. I hope
you can find value from yours.
My question is: Do you think I'm cursed?
No. You are a being of light. No more and no less than any other. No one has the power to curse you. We are all equal.
Or am I just unlucky?
No. It sounds like you are very lucky to me. You have avoided danger and injury, You have people who take care of you, You have family and pets that
touched you life and remind you how precious the time we have together is. You sound very intelligent and thoughtful.
Should there be a turning point in my life? If so, can you predict when it is, seeing that my 13th (unlucky number) birthday is
I think we have lots of turning points in our lives. I think that turning points are different to different people. Some people might think something
is a curse, and others may look at the same thing as a blessing.
Some people think the number 13 is lucky. Happy B Day!
I think it's neat that you are informed and learning things online, but please be careful about asking for advice online. Also there is so much
information online that it can be overwhelming at times. Try to find some uplifting things to focus on offline too,
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