posted on Apr, 8 2010 @ 03:01 AM
reply to post by silversurfer6161
Hi, good question. Another member (OrionTri) asked me the same thing on the thread where I originally posted this one. My use of "schadenfreude" is
a very loose usage. For two reasons:
First being that Schadenfreude is the name of the "character" the poem is about. Nickname might be more precise. The character entering the abyss
does not have a first, or standard name yet. Schadenfreude is the nickname I have given him/her.
Second, I consider it a kind of spiritual schadenfreude. At the time that I wrote it I had been a part of a group of spiritually minded individuals.
Together we were all exploring our own diverse spiritual paths towards godhead or enlightenment.
Of the group I was elected the "Teacher" or "Leader" if you will. It was my job to review and guide the group forward.
Now, unknown to them, my own spiritual road was skirting the edge of suicide. This suicidal inclination was leading me towards my own Abyss, what I
call Nothingness in the poem.
Oddly enough though, the closer that I came to suicidal inclinations, the more my messages seemed to resonate with the other members. They were
finding truths and happiness because of my slow degradation.
In short, they were emotionally happy because I was mentally and psychologically suffering. Schadenfreude.
There's a whole sub-layer too, about how the ability to suffer so someone else can be happy is a spiritual sacrifice and such. OrionTri and I have
been discussing it on another thread. I didn't intend it to be such when I wrote it, but our discussions on that thread have made me see it as a
legitimate philosophy now.
~ Wandering Scribe
[edit on 8/4/10 by Wandering Scribe]