posted on Mar, 30 2010 @ 03:35 AM
First of all, hello! and sorry if I sound somewhat confusing. This is like "never drink and drive", but "never post in other language that's not
your mother tonge when you're sleepy as hell"
I was reading in another thread about a girl who recieved a couple of crucifixes for her bday, and I recalled something weird I did after the
If you ask me, I really don't believe that crucifixes, rosaries or saints sculptures or pictures have some power or protect us... as itselves. Maybe,
as objects they are, they got charged by energy that maybe can help us to make our faith stronger and so, but aside of that, just useles pieces of
wood, metal and porcelain.
Anyway, the day of the quake, and after everything stopped, I came to my bedroom to see what happened here. All my collections on the floor, all my
music cds over my bed, boxes cracked and open up... and I took my panic attack pills from my night table (because I had a big one after the quake
itself, and panic attacks are like quakes themelves, you have the main one and still feel "aftershocks" for a while if you don't take the pills or
get relaxed... and in a situation like that, my pills were the only solution. Try to reach your center and meditating before an 8.8º quake!)... Or
that was what I think on the moment.
Lately, I put my hand on my hoodie pocket (the quake caught me in my pajamas, so i just put on a hoodie over it to pass the cold of the morning) and I
founded my mom's old rosary in my pocket. It seems that I took it from my night table along with my pills without noticing. The rosary is so old it
haves one "pearl" missing. I have it near to my bed because I can feel my mom near to me when having it closer. I'm definetly not catholic (I do
believe in God, so strongly, but in another way) and I'm not iconoclastic as I stated before, but the energy of that piece of plastic, metal and wood
does make something on me. I feel protected. Not by God but by my mom, that lives in a city 700 kms away from me. And by that time I really needed my
mom close to me. I remember myself crying like a child when hugging the sustentation pillar of my flat, calling my mom (and hey, i'm 25... can you
imagine how scared I was...), so the fact of sliding the rosary on my pocket doesn't sount that weird.
The question is: Do you think, fellow ATSers, that those icons means something aside of what they mean to me? God power into a chain of pearls or
I also have a picture of a saint on my night table, not because I think it hides some power, but because he gave us a great message, he's somehow a
role model for me. I don't pray to him, but I admire him to death. He was really a great guy and he deserves to be a role model to everyone around
Thanks for reading, and again, I hope you can get my point... 5:35 here... but I really wanted to share this with you all. Sorry for the typos too...
tomorrow I'm going to re-checl the post to fix them, I promise....