I've been thinking about this a lot lately because my spirituality, my soul, my spiritual being is my life, it's what makes me who I am. I feel
lost... very, very lost
Lately I've been feeling not myself. By that I mean I'm not staying true to my spirituality, it's almost as if my 'spiritual phase' is passing.
It's not, don't get me wrong, but I for some reason am staying away from meditating lately.
Ever since this stuff happened with me finding out about someone I know being murdered by the feds (link in my signature) and I meditated and actually
had Darius (the man killed) come to me while meditating, which I've never had happen before with anyone ever, I've seemed to be pushed away from
even wanting to meditate... I'm not scared, but I almost feel like if I meditate deeply I will find out some very extreme information and I don't
know if I'm ready for it.
Has anyone else found themselves in this predicament before? Or anything like it what so ever? What did you do? Or, in the case you haven't been
in any situation like myself, what would you do? Would you just go through with it and try and push through and figure out what the weight on your
shoulders is, or would you wait until it seemed time to do so? Who even knows if that time will ever come, maybe I'm supposed to follow through with
this.
I mean I actually had this person I know, Darius, who was murdered, come to me show me his death in detail (it was horrible), and I could sense his
frustration and despair, it was just horrible. He very much wanted me to help clear his name not for the sake of himself, but for his family. I have
done all I can to help him in the physical world at this time... is it time to delve into the spiritual realm and see what I can do?
Please help me ATS, I really don't like feeling like this. I miss my spirituality... It's almost as it's drifting away, and I worked hard to get
where I was/am and I am a good, kind hearted person who wants nothing more than to help others.
Peace, Love & Light.