Here's a topic that I don't think I've seen anyone post a thread about and it has to do with "subcultures". You know what kind of things the kids
these days are into. Some of them take it with them for life as something part of them, like a philosophy, a way of living.
When I was a teenager I never really understood my place. I guess I wasn't really looking to fit in. You know what I mean, in a high school you get
your varieties of people all stereotyped in group with their pet names: Jocks, Nerds, Punks, Goths, Losers, Skaters, whatever right...
So like my entire childhood I had a small group of friends. I guess I couldn't find my place though i'm not sure I was looking for one that involved
sacrificing my individual values. Yeah well that changed when I got older because that's what I did and thought I was doing the opposite. Well, in a
sense I was doing both, now this is an interesting topic to me. Let me explain.
So my sister started dating this guy who was a classic punk. They broke up but years later he and I are best friends. Well when they were dating I
started hanging around with him and through him I met some like-minded people. Before I started listening to punk rock music, I thought all music was
the same love song over and over again, something that I wasn't really digging at the time. This punk rock music had energy, aggression, it was
vulgar but it was mostly open ended, which is what I liked about it. Some of it had a pretty smart message.
So it's kind of interesting, I mean, while trying to retain my individuality I got into this thing that totally absorbed me into a life philosophy. I
started to show my enthusiam for it by spiking my hair and it was a manner of years before I had the full on punk rock poster boy image. But I made it
look tough!! jk.
I already had an edge on me from my childhood but I think the punk rock brought out the animal in me. It got me pissed off and I was ready for the
violent revolution. What I found was I was emulating some feelings to a depth I sometimes didn't generally feel. To put it simply, I became more of
an a-hole that's for sure. I think if anything it made me arrogant, like it was a whole "F you, no'one understands me, you're all sheep, I hate
you all" sort of mentality.
I can say I got myself into a fair amount of trouble while at the same time luckily avoiding it for the most part, but yeah, not entirely. See this
what's interesting about punk rock, the movement behind it, a message and mentality that was something shared but also varied. You had some pretty
smart political activists and you had your drunken crazies! (me). So I was in this group of individuals, feeling very individual but I think I was
still deffinately wearing a mask. I mean, many punks sure look alike, but for the most part I found a lot them to be pretty solid, smart and wise
people. Others were just depressed and angry as hell. What I'm trying to get at here is i'm not trying to group or stereotype yet I did it to
myself, I fell into a stereotype in some form even though it's the last thing I wanted growing up. I liked to look punk because of the creative
expression and to me it really shows how a lot of these types of people you see have a very creative potential wanting to be expressed. At the same
time it takes a certain quality to walk around like that. (you will get harassed, beer cans thrown at you and beat up.) hahaha.
It's just interesting. But the whole thing really resonated with me at one point. I wanted so badly to form a punk band and do that for my life.
Well it lasted a few years before the band mates went to school, or picked up trades or something. What happened for me was I had a series of deja
vus and well, it let me to a path of exploring meditation. I was never spiritual for any sake of the word but to meditate for so long and not to take
some bigger picture out of it seemed impossible to resist.
I started meditating and keep in mind I was one angry SOB. This thread is open-ended but it has a second intention here. I think a lot of meditators
are misunderstood. Some people feel their anger is justified and reasonable, a long with all their F-d up thoughts and feelings. I sure as hell did. I
externalized blame for everything. I was judgemental. I was like the people I hated. I'm not saying I found "god" in the sense you may be thinking
as the cause of my shift of attitude but through the meditation I got into the depth of my mind, and started to sympathize for people. I guess I
reached a point where I no longer felt like I wanted to struggle up stream and I searched for some sense of understanding and peace within myself. To
this day i've never felt so individual and open to be myself as i choose to express it but what interests me still is..
I can still listen to some music and it makes me want to emulate a certain look. Its like the music's sound vibrations are tuning me, lol. I mean you
look at a whole subculture of people and what seems to be common to me is how a type of music goes with their life philosophy they've taken to. I
don't like to think I am limited to that as my style and musical taste these days is diverse but what's interesting is how it seems it can be taken
very enthusiastically and even being able to mold you into this person.
It's just very interesting to think about and there are no threads about it. To many people this whole look, this music, this subculture is a
philosophy, a way of life to them.
I still bust out some punk rock jams here and there and love it but my approach is different. I never thought i'd be "that guy". Punk rock till the
day I die is what I thought. I like to think of myself as punk rock evolved.
If punk rock is centered around free expression and a sort of fun and
enduring, tough way of life, well I just think now-adays I'm better at it!
If I ever found anything that interested me in punk rock it was a sense of individuality and I didn't realize how I took on a little more then that.
One thing's for sure though about the appearance, to this day what I express outwardly often what I feel inwardly. The punk rock look is what I felt
inside, and it came out as vibrant, fun, but also angry and unapproachable. It's just interesting how we want to freely express ourselves, despite
that it may appear similar to how someone else looks.. who cares? We end up blending in this group but the whole time I generally just wanted to look
that way and I did it for myself, i don't know about the others. So its kind of interesting how a group of people can be stereotyped when in some
cases there is some justification but in many ways it just becomes a chosen personal expression that just so happens may reflect a mindset that could
have been culturally shaped.
It's interesting really. I'm just not angry anymore, and I express myself in what appears still dark but i'd like to think a little more peaceful.
. It's just interesting how we want to stereotype a whole group of people when really it's much more complex then that. For me, whatever
commonalities I adapted, i felt i had very personal and individual reasons for it.
Well in some sense I went from the punk rock revolutionary mentality to one more of a mind-revolutionary. That raw energy is still in me, just
expressed differently.
So what do you all have to say subcultures and philosophies?
Is there one you have taken to and feel are unjustly stereotyped?
Is there one you have felt you outgrew or changed for a certain reason?
Do you think music is strong enough to shape a person in such a way?
All these questions. So what is your take on it?
Oi Oi Oi, punx! haha. cheers
[edit on 17-2-2010 by CavemanDD]