posted on Jan, 24 2010 @ 04:52 PM
Hiya
This is just to let you know that I haven't forgotten you and I still hope for things to go well for you.
I'd suggest that you forget about what other people are up to and concentrate on who you are and who you want to be. Rise above the temptation to let
others get you down.
The world is full of sad and unhappy people and you don't have to be one of them. So many people take out their frustrations on innocent bystanders
because they don't want to fall out with their loved ones or they haven't got the guts to confront the person or situation that is really upsetting
them.
Take a look at yourself and where you are now. You're better off than you were this time last year - not everyone can say that.
As long as you have so much time to yourself, use it. Take the opportunity to work on yourself and become the best person you can be.
I know you have an interest in the occult - read some books. Look at some of the one's I suggested in Lisa12's thread.
I spent many years alone and I know about loneliness and how weird a person can become if they don't spend too much time with others. So what? It's
character building. You'll learn independence and self-reliance. You'll realize that you can be a strong person, able to cope with life and fend
for yourself.
Dig deep, find your inner resources and build them up. Get fit physically too, if you can.
Take an interest in nature, watch the birds see the flowers blooming in the spring. Get out of you current mind-set, it's doing you no good.
See yourself as a work in progress. You have so much material to work with, you could turn yourself into a little work of art.
And listen to Valiant - that was good advice he gave you.
My best to you - I know you're struggling but some of us will be here to throw you a life-jacket