posted on Jan, 24 2010 @ 07:18 AM
Hi Everybody!,
I know that many of you are very experienced with meditation and with alternate densities/astral planes etc. I hope you don't mind me asking a few
questions of you all with more experience than myself. I have been trying to meditate and do some spiritual work on myself lately but have been having
problems. For the longest time I would have (lucid dreaming?) or dreams where I was aware of the situation and able to control them completely. I had
complete control and would often change the course of these dreams for my enjoyment. Then as of the past few years, I began to no longer remember any
of my dreams at all. It was as if I quit dreaming altogether. Then in the recent past for the first time since being a child, I have had a few
recurring negative dreams in which I lack my usual control. Many of these recurring dreams also seem to have something to do with the world issues as
they are today. Though this could just be because of how I occupy myself
I dunno if any of this is related to my meditation experience but it seemed
pertinent so I mention it.
Now as for meditation, I have had problems with my attempts as well. From time to time I have accidentally fallen asleep while trying to meditate
which I have heard/know is a common mistake/control issue when you are new but it's when this doesn't happen that I run into problems. I can very
very easily, or so it seems to me slip into the astral planes and I feel as if I have the same control over it as I did over my dreams years before. I
feel as if I am almost a natural there, like I belong, or that at least controlling myself there is very natural and familiar BUT..... here's my
problem, every time I get to this place and begin to dive deeper in any direction, ie., deeper into myself, astral projection, moving through
that/those planes, any kind of movement or investigation, somebody or something, or even myself, forcefully shoves me back into our density/reality/my
body! It's like being startled awake, pushed, and purposely scared all at once! I always am left with the feeling that either part of me, or
something/someone else is afraid of what I might discover, see, or be capable of, so as soon as I get to that plane so to speak and start to make
waves, I feel like I attract attention and someone/thing/me that is much more experienced pushes me back out!?
So does anyone have any thoughts? Ideas? Help? Is this at all normal? Am I crazy? Is it my own mental block? Could someone be trying to stop me?
Thanks for any insight friends! I would love to solve this personal mystery as I feel we should all be entitled to work on our spiritual
selves/explore/improve and I can't