posted on Apr, 30 2009 @ 10:34 AM
*takes a big breath*
I am gonna leap here, I hope someone can catch me and help me....
I said when I posted my 'Hello' that something happened a few weeks back. Well not really 'happened' more like reminded me.
I'm gonna give a little background info first tho. I was raised by my dad and my step-mom. Pop never seemed religious to me, but my step-mom was
always searching. She drug me to a 7th day Adventist church, penicostal church and a baptist church. I never much cared for any of them TBH. I went, I
made friends and left the religion alone. Or so I thought.
So here's the memory that has brought me here and to a sense of awareness...
I was playin with my very favoritest ball in the 'dinning room'. (I put that like that because later my dad put up a wall and it became my bedroom)
As I was walking towards the closet I looked at the wall. And there was a picture of (I'm gonna sound like a crazy person but here goes. there was no
pictures of him in our house anywhere) Jesus. But not a picture. Why not a pic? It talked to me. I was prolly 7-ish.
I stared at it becase it looked sooo real.. like he could just walk out of it. So.. all I can remember of that conversation is.. "do you know who I
am?" he asked "of course, you are jesus" Thats all I remember of the conversation. I wasnt scared or worried or freaking out because the wall was
talking to me.
I remember going to school and telling a friend "I saw Jesus on my wall". She told everyone, which of course she would. I got razzed and made fun of
for a long time. I promised never to tell another soul about this. This is why I think it was a memory not a dream.
I had forgotten about this until a few weeks ago. I had a dream of it. But not really. I was standing in the corner watching my younger self talk to
the picture. I was amazed.. I didnt miss a step when he just appeared there. And still I have no more info about what was said after 'of course, you
So I seem stuck. Was it just a whacked out dream? Or did it happen? Why would it happen? I had no particular religon... I am stuck.
Can anyone give me some guidance on what I can do to suss this out so I can move past it?