reply to post by guinnessford
The absolute beauty of the whole thing is, no one who actually knows the truth is going to talk about it, so if you have been targeted by some secret
powerful agency, you're going it practically all alone. My life has been a complete emotional and financial tumble since 2000, when I regularly
started visiting conspiracy sites and watching certain videos (on YouTube and others). I had an art studio where I would sometimes sleep, and one
sleepover in 2001 lasted very nearly 12 hours, which was unusual since if I get 6 full hours sleep I consider it a miracle. That next morning when I
awoke -- actually around 1:30 PM, I felt nothing. Not tired, not rested, just nothing, is the best I can describe it. Always on nights I could manage
5-6 hours sleep I would feel well-rested, so I thought that was strange, but nothing to make an issue about, so I never discussed it (with whom,
anyway? . . ) Since then I have felt, just odd, out of place around people, not sure of my own self, low self-esteem, but still nothing that an
evidence-demanding audience would find significant. But you know when your own personality has changed.
In recent years I have experienced consistent and inconsistently toned ringing in my ears, particularly the left. It almost seems like it's inside my
head, moreso than in the ear. For a while over the last two years emails would arrive with subject matter corresponding to personal activities in the
"privacy" of my home. Not simply coincidentally, but specifically within minutes. Bathroom trips, that kind of thing. I recently got a young cat,
and the next day there was a spam email from "....@annoyingkitten.com", which was how they communicated their messages. I even received one
advertising HD online television with multiple screens as the ad graphic, but when I decided to look at the images on the little screens (I'm a
graphic artist, so things like ad layout interest me), several of them were images of the front of my place, digitally altered with things such as a
german shepherd by the front door, view from a rifle scope aiming at the front door, and a smoke trail like a missle from a rocket launcher going
through the front window. Other emails were threatening people I loved, only using consonants for names, or phonetic equivalents, with city names
where they lived, but nothing ever happened, I'm glad to say. My web site, which is basically family-friendly, was hacked, with pornographic pictures
I had nothing to do with uploaded onto the server and redirects to .ru porn sites, and when I contacted my hosting company, they removed several
folders and files and were able to detect that the garbage had not come from my computer. I have Vonage phone service, and at first when I attempted
to contact my hosting company, that number would redirect to an "I'm sorry, this call cannot be completed" recording. I emailed ICANN with a
request of how they might suggest I resolve the problem, and after that I was able to use my phone to contact the hosting company.
The population is conditioned to think that anything that is not seen on the news or doesn't come out of a respected university is lunatic, but
neither the news nor the university is teaching everything that may be known.
So when you or I feel as though we've been targeted and are being, perhaps, secretly watched by perps or hidden super high-tech video surveillance
systems even in our own homes, to whom do we turn to discuss it? Right, a conspiracy web site, where every form of ridiculous scenario has been
intermingled with true circumstances so heavily that nothing is actually taken very seriously, unless by another witness or victim.
And of course there's always the even deeper rabbit-hole issue of, are you, OP, a dis-info agent posting a false scenario to fish for replies; or am
I one, you could rightly ask. Though I have little to offer as proof of my claim, for the record, let me assure you that I am not.