Basically I have a lot of points I want to point out so I'll do it as a list to make things easier.

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- I'm a believer that we can't be alone in the universe.

- I am confused as to whether some things I have seen have been shooting stars or something else. A lot of times when I go outside to bed (I sleep in a sleep out disconnected from the house) I have a feeling that I have to look up into the sky and as soon as I do I see a shooting star right where I turned to. These have appeared differently, some being bright white lights, one had a really bright white light with a blue tail, and another one was just a star but it was moving quickly than a satelite and had no tail, although it was moving a lot slower than a regular shooting star.

- I am not religious.

- My mother had an out of body experience when she was having her third child. She said she was up at the ceiling looking down on her - she lost a lot of blood at the birth and nearly didn't survive. She has an open mind but doesn't outrightly say she believes in anything paranormal.

- I am 20 now and have suffered from depression and anxiety problems for most of my life. I have a fear of social situations and have lost most of my friends from school because I have no interest in socialising and doing what young people do. I feel some kind of comfort being at home, and when I'm out anywhere I can't wait to get home I don't really understand it. I tried 2 medications for the depression and neither worked, my doctor kept pushing the counselling thing and I didn't want to do it. I have no idea what triggered the anxiety/depression or if I was born with it. After this I have developed a strong anti-medical thing where I'll only go to the doctor if completely necessary and I had taking drugs of any sort, even pain killers for a head-ache.

- I feel completely disconnected from the world, I feel like I'm on another 'plane' or something.

- I have a feeling that my life on earth is insignificant to what is going on out in space, there is a superior force that is somehow connected with out planet. I feel that I have some kind of goal that is linked with this, and that I have some role to play in 'their' events, although I have no idea who they are or what they are doing. I kind of feel like I'm waiting for something to happen. I think that everyday things like just going to work so you can survive is pointless, there is something bigger going on.

- I have a huge fear of being watched and right now at home alone it's 6am and I don't feel alone, I am so scared my eyes are watering. I hate being in the dark, even with lots of people I feel so scared. When I'm in bed some nights I feel completely scared I have to sleep under the covers, I feel as though there is someone in the room just standing by my bed, I hear noises but can't see anything. My dog sometimes starts barking in the middle of the night. I have some nights where I can't sleep at all, there is a anxious feeling in my stomach but there is nothing on my mind to cause it? Whenever I think of aliens or I picture a grey alien in my head I get so scared, the look they they give you is so scary. I have never seen an alien before but this keeps happening.

- I have a huge fear of heights (this seems normal with a lot of people).

- Even though I'm not a vegetarian I hate eating meat because I hate to take the life of an innocent animal just so we can eat. I think humans are arrogant and do what they want. I don't feel like I want to be part of the human race, I feel ashamed. The fighting (wars) is immature and stupid, the brutality on this planet is never ending and I can't even stand thinking about it, but there's nothing I can do. I feel like humans are so immature I don't want to be a part of this.

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This is all I could think of right now, sorry it's quite long and reading it just makes me think I'm crazy but I live a fairly normal life apart from these things.

Thanks for taking time to read this

You have a lot going on, but no more than quite a few of us here, or anywhere in real life.
I don't see the connection to anything you may be seeing in the sky, to what you are going through.
Perhaps your anxiety is/was caused by an incident in your childhood that you don't fully remember.
I too am afraid of heights..not much into social situations...(ATS is as social as I get.)
I don't go to Doc's unless emergency situation either.
But I don't blame Aliens for it.
I was either born with some of it in my DNA, or it developed due to life experiences.
If you are having problems coping with your anxiety and fears, and also what sounds like searching for the meaning of it all, I would suggest finding a good counselor. Not one that is quick to write you a prescription either.

Ahoy thar, Dave. You are looking for reasons for why you feel as you do and you are exploring avenues such as your condition possibly being in relation to aliens or ufo's, understandibly you are doing it out of desperation. Don't. The problem is within your own mind, millions of people around the world suffer as you do and when you are a prisoner of your mind it can be as hard as hell to escape it. You must overcome your apprehension about seeing doctors, they could well help, what have you to lose by trying?

Yes you must see a doctor honey they will be able to help,honest....having suffered from depression myself for many years I can tell you that alot of the anxious feelings you feel are down to the depression...It is an ugly illness that although cannot be cured it can certainly be contained....
I hope you can get some help as I would not wish this on anyone..be brave..and take that step....good luck X