posted on Sep, 2 2008 @ 08:51 PM
Okay, so I had a dream about a week ago that I just cant get out of my .. First Ill give a little background info (this is extremely personal so I
would appreciate understanding and honesty)...
Ive struggled with substance abuse my whole teenage/adult life, starting with drinking, smoking pot and popping pain pills. Unfortunately everything
spiraled out of my control and for the past five years I was addicted to heroin. Fortunately Ive finally kicked the habit and have been clean for a
while now (approx. 6 months).
Now onto my dream...
It started with me running away from some people on a beach (I dont know why, but I could feel the urgency of my need to escape them), after managing
to make it into some sort of building I immediately stripped to my boxers (?) and threw my pants to the ground, in my pants was a substance wrapped in
a plastic baggy (it was a weird green color, had a slight glow about it), as I looked to my left I noticed a staircase and someone walking down it, I
picked up the substance and hid it in my pants. I turn around and notice a person (I believe it was a man but I cant give a clear description, very
fuzzy, couldnt make out any distinct features but the person emminated light and calm, which soothed me and took all of my anxieties away but I just
got an extremely strong, almost forceful, feeling of "good".) and he starts talking to me (he never moved his mouth from what I could tell), from
what he was saying (Ive been beating myself up for not being able to remember much of anything, Im so frustrated by it) I knew that he knew what it
was I was carrying and he begins talking to me, then two people barged through the door (definitely the ones that were chasing me, I remember a few
things about one of them) and start explaining to the man at the desk about who they are and what theyre doing, I could tell the man knew what they
were saying wasnt true, it felt as though he was communicating his feelings with me without talking, and what he left me with was that I can do
anything I set out to do and I am of some importance. Then I woke up.
Im really angry at myself that my memory of the dream is so fuzzy, I just cant stop thinking about it. If anyone knows about dreams and meanings, I
would certainly appreciate the help.