I always question the existence of God, ever since I was young and was taught about the universe (i think i was 10). All of the planets and stars and
galaxies....its mind boggling and how large and vast the universe is and how insignificant our tiny speck of existence is.
In a way I am a hypocrite. I dont necessarily believe in "God" persay, but in times of worship and prayer, I feel a calming and soothing sensation
flow from my head, down my back, to my feet. I have only felt that sensation during times of worship, and never at any other time. So in essence, is
it God giving me his grace? or is it a subconcious sensation created out of want to feel "Him".
Its funny b/c last night I fell asleep asking myself the same question, if God created the heavens and the earth and all of the known universe, then
who created God...? Could God be some form of life that created a "our universe" in a lab experiment? Could we be held in their "glass sphere"
with "them" being beings of enormous proportions that the human mind cant comprehend? Hypothetically, like our universe fitting inside a marble (Men
in Black movie reference).
Now, the big bang. Awesome theory, and it does seem to explain the beginning of the Universe, although it does not explain the questions "What
brought it into existence?" and "What caused it to explode?" It is stated that the universe was once a "singularity". A small speck of matter
smaller than the smallest part of an atom. And then BOOM, everything is created. Matter, planets, stars, life....And the universe is expanding. My
question is, if the universe is expanding and eventually collapsing back into a singularity, then has this process repeated itself before? If not,
then what created the singularity? If so, then how many times has it repeated itself? Also, with each repeat, could the universe have played out
exactly the same? I.E. with every big bang, could there have been a solar system exactly like ours with our little planet with our species and history
of the planet??
There are too many questions about creation. Also, there are too many opinions on the subject, being belief and science and a mixture of the two. I
dont believe any of those questions will be answered in my lifetime (I'm 22). Although, I would like to know the answers, but the biggest question
is, could I comprehend and understand the answers if I was told them?