posted on Jul, 20 2008 @ 12:49 PM
My entire life, I have noted that I am good at a lot of things but great at none. I always feel like I am stuck on the starting line, waiting for the
signal to go.... but it just never comes. I have longed for a "passion" for many years, but I have not been able to find one.
It is one of the most frustrating things in my life.
Walking through life like lightning looking for a lightning rod to crash into, eh...?
I don't know what to tell you, Karl, except that that has been my "problem", too: passionately looking for a passion.... and never ever finding the
right catalyst or the right outlet - certainly not for long.
Only, as it turned out, that may have been for the best.
There is an obscure "higher" reason for such objectless passion.
I am not sure I know what it is, and I am 100% sure that, even if I knew for sure, I would not be able to formulate it well right now, so I'll only
say this: this accumulated energy - that may feel dispersed, or if as if you were running on empty - can lead to truly great things, things that
transcend the "ordinary". (Whether you want that or not is a different question.)
And, among other things, it may prove to be the perfect "state of mind" for precisely the kind of achievements that Bardon is proposing. (Sorry for
sounding solemn and ponderous.
Think of it as energised freedom (in the sense of not being bound and circumscribed).
More on this when I am more at home.
(It's not a typo.
P.S. Don't worry about being "depressed". It'll clear up by itself when you accept and come to terms with what has been said above. But I may be
back and say a word or two on that, too. Later.