posted on Jul, 3 2008 @ 03:52 PM
I've been attempting meditation for about two years now.
The first half a year or so went really well. I figured out my own method that seemed to work, and even got so far into it, that I went out of body
Ever since shortly after the OBEs, in which I took a trip around some brilliant crystal planets the first time, and the second time, I went to Mars
and discovered giant black pyramids.... I have not been able to get evenly back into that flow at all. What I saw was something tangible, because
I've had several people comment that they've seen the same thing in visions of theirs.
My meditation, as well as my average life, has since then been bombarded by strange pains, twitches, pokes, jabs, pulls, horrible migraines, and
horrible tones in my ears from an unknown source... and it is very hard to meditate, when as soon as I get into that mode, all of that stuff starts,
and sometimes I get jabbed so hard that I almost fall off what I'm siting on, like someone pushed me . It feels like there's an invisible someone
trying to distract me by poking me with invisible sharp things.
I stlll manage every now and then to gain some little insight unto which I contemplate further during the next few days and exand upon while fully
conscious... but I can't get back to where I once was right now.
What I believe is doing this are these "invisible" beings that live in my house. I say invisible, but you can see the smoky, often humanoid outline
sometimes. Several people related to me have seen them, as well. It's just hard to tell how close they can get because it becomes harder to focus
when it's up close, but you can feel them there.
I've tried a few things to get rid of them... but with meditation, it's hard to do any visualization work when this is happening to me, and I need
another way to get rid of these whatevers because they are literally killing me slowly. It's not just my head. It's my whole body. They do these
things to my whole body, and nobody will understand. Even the people who've seen them act like I'm crazy when I say they are hurting me.
I don't even know if it's them even. They are around, though... and the pains and ear screeches and pokings, sometimes even slight shoving
sensations, they seem like they come from something intelligent, because it's always at the most inconvenient times, or when I have certain thoughts,
and especially during meditation. I don't know what to do because even the people who've experienced strange things with me refuse to believe...
only one friend who thinks he is a reincarnated shaman believes me... but he has no idea what to do. Good job remembering, ex-shaman.