It's all here.
I met someone Wednesday who has a son in Afghanistan. He is on second tour, and I listened to a story about some of the soldiers who took an
alternate way out than returning to the theater. Is it any wonder? Well, that may seem superficial as a stand alone question, but there is still
I imagine everyone has thought or at least thought about thinking of suicide. I would never ever do away with myself;
However, take me back to an age when life is beginning. When adulthood has finally been obtained, and visions of Adventure, Love, Power, Success and
Notoriety are conceived in the mind, from the Hood, to the White house, then Train me in the art of survival, killing, disassociation, and following
orders. Gather myself and thousands of others like me and send us over to fight war for a year or two or three, and while the gore and horror become
the norm, give me my dear john letter from my wife of three years who, pregnant when I left, now has my child and is leaving me for reasons that are
only letters on a page, for no meaning is attached to them. Now send me out to secure a village and let me vent on those who do not comply with
commands in a harsh way, allowing me to vent my frustrations, hate, surreal life I find myself living, and take my revenge out on those villagers that
I don't understand but must pay for what I am going through in my minds misery. Then, when I am too tired to shed any more blood, bring me home for
awhile. What am I going home too? Lost love, Child Support, Humility and utter lonely pain. After months in the bottom of a bottle, Send me a
letter of redeployment. By now, I know I am nothing, I know I've done wrong, I know I've been wronged. I still have a glimmer of light in my soul,
but I can not kill any more people. I still have the power to chose. In my despair, I know how to right my wrongs and to pay for my crimes. I know
what must be done. There is no longer a redeeming quality to cling to, I tell myself that my statement of never doing away with myself was not real.
Life is not real. Nothing is real except for it all to end. Just let it end...
That is my opinion of a struggle between sanity and the senseless utterings of an unwell man that fought in Bush's war.
and why are more veterans dying at their own hands than in the War arena?