I am late as usual. But no
you do not make me vomit, I can completely relate to how you feel.
Really, trust me.
I know how it feels when one is in a void. Quick sand.
I was there, I can still find my self there. Just briefly.
But back then, OH I had to learn a leason.
I was a sailor and it can get damned lonely out there. I cried, I raged, I thought I was gonna die. It was sooooo lonely.
And then I turned around, I had to embrace that loneliness, I walked right in to it. I confined my self. I talked to my self. I listened to my
I learned the hard way, that the only person you have to fall back on, is........your self. I learned to appreciate and nurture my own company.
That is the most important leason. To truly enjoy.
It was a very lonely road. But it paid of.
I also learned to appreciate others, people animals, the earth in a whole different way.
Down that road I found people that in that brief moment of time granted me friendship.
I still recall a face, a voice, a name at times, I just call them "Friend".
It is a devastating road dear, walk it with caution, learn to pick your friends, they are mirrors of your self.
Once you find you, you will find them.
Does this make sense?
Sit down with me at a watering hole a little, just sit.
I think perhaps only those who are strong enough to walk this path are assigned to it, perhaps?