reply to post by EntitySeed
Just as constant abrasion to our skin will eventaly form a callus, I think constant abrasion of ones spirit can also cause it to harden.
I would be hard pressed to determin which is which for myself. I'm not sure if my heart has been softened by the suffering I have seen and
experienced, or if it has softened in spite of it all.
I deal every day with contridictions within myself that i do not understand.
The best I can come up with is that those who have had to take a life, and understand how profound an act that is, are left with a deeper respect for
life.
Your words reveal much pain of both body and spirit.
While I can not change any of those things that have led you to where you are, I can offer an interest in helping you to find a path with fewer
obstacles.
Parhaps this open forum is not the best place for this conversation.
If you would care to " U2U" me. I would be interested in talking further
I gather your a fairly recent member, as am I, so I'm not sure how this U2U works, but we can learn together

