reply to post by worldwatcher
With whats going on in my life at this time and all seems to be in the negative realm, I decided to try something new after reading this posting. I
tried two forms of meditation one for my forward path and then last for a spirit guide.
I followed the meditation processes and found that a beautiful white sandy beach on a deserted isolated island with blue water, little waves and big
palm trees did the trick, I think.
I tried to envision me coming towards myself and it seems as though I was motionless & hovering over the water about 100 ft from the beach.
I noticed what appeared at first to be a person on the beach a man and my first thought was that it was me, just like the meditation said to envision
me seeing myself.
This person resembled me somewhat lighter skinned but he was thinner and he had more hair and it was black, mine now is white but when I was young I
had brown hair. He started walking towards the water and the closer he got, the more I noticed that I didn't know him at all. He stopped about 10 ft
in front and he seemed to be over the water now and for sure, I did not recognize him, not even as a friend, but the feeling I got was warm and
friendly, we did not speak. It was really hard for me to try to concentrate on looking him in the eyes, but I just kept making short glances at his
expression. I felt warm and comfortable. Could this be my spirit looking over me, or just wishful thinking.
He started walking back to the beach and just momentarily glanced back at me and this to me seemed to be his goodbye.
The very next image I got was a tall light skinned big headed bald man or being standing in front of a black or very dark background, maybe a very big
door, I dont know but dark. There was light behind us, lighting up his pale fleshy skin and I only seen him from his chest up, no shirt or anything of
I have had my fair share of big heads in my youth and dark shadow beings but this time it was different and I have never experienced anything like
this before. In all of my past moments I never ever was able to look at their faces, either the big heads or the shadow beings but this time I seen
both spirits faces, does this make sense.
What scared me for a brief moment and made me try to blank out this thought was his eyes were round and black, but not really big just very round &
black just like the background, he did not speak and remained motionless in this vast space of darkness and his stare was cold and sharp as a knife, I
felt fear for that moment.
Is this what you would call my spirit guides around me or is it a possible call for some psycho-analizing, I'm not sure about this, because it was my
first attempt at meditation, whats your opinion or anyone else for that matter.
Today I was setting on a bench looking out over a lake and the sun was warm, the sky was blue with a little bit of puffy clouds, the breeze was light,
the ducks were dipping their heads, planes flying over, cars humming by and the thought occurred to me that I am a million miles away and I'm just
trying to get back, does any of this make sense.