posted on Dec, 2 2007 @ 03:41 PM
I might be able to shed some light on the matter of mental health and experiences about aliens. I have had a certain serious mental health issue in
the past, and that time of my life certainly led to the birth of false memories that refer to things that never actually happened.
I was lucky enough to have been born with the ability to think in pictures. What made me lucky with that feature was the fact that there are very
little people who think in that way, and that forced me to learn how to think in words and sentences. That particular forced learning led to an
ability of some degree, in where i could compare memories in two completely different ways, thus giving some ability to notice when memories are
false, changed over time or otherwise biased. It isn't a perfect mechanism for that, though, but it helps when you have had a mental disorder.
Hopefully that gave you some idea of how I came to know that certain memories that I have are indeed false.
I do not know exactly how it happened in the first place, but I have always been interested about aliens, ufo's, certain paranormal matters and
religion in general. What was to came is that my subconscious mind started to generate strong feelings associated with mental pictures that I had of
my interests. Sometimes I actually felt deep fear and a sense of helplesness and images (I think with images, usually) of such things came into my
mind. That wasn't that big of a problem, but the fact that those subjects came into my dreams was.
Perhaps this is just another story of sleep paralysis, but subjects that were included in that state were of course those of my interests. Aliens,
ufo's, all kinds of spirits, some weird guy with a white beard and things like that. Because of my mental state, I was sometimes unable to tell the
difference between what was real and what was not. Then, at some point I suffered from such paralysis when watching TV. I was totally awake, fully
aware but my body just stopped.
These were the things, at day, when fully awake and I didn't awaken, I was awake all the time, these things came into my mind and I saw all kinds of
things. Part of my thinking that works with pictures was totally helpless in making a difference between real and false, I had my words and sentences
(another way to think) that didn't match such false reality.
These things were not exactly a reason for taking medicine ordered by a doctor, but luckily those medicines that I did eat helped in that too, and
such things never ever happened when awake again. I sometimes still suffer from sleep paralysis but the aliens are, mostly, gone.
What I fear the most is that there exists mental states in where you are simply not capable to tell a difference between real and false. It is not
always the case that people around notice something weird, sometimes peopel with such state appear completely sane, but aren't.
I am not saying that people who experience these kind of things are all crazy, but some really are - I was. Although, deep down, I still aren't
certain but at least my conscious mind apparenly knows better.
I never told about these things to a doctor, it made no sense. I would propably have been taken to some mental hospital I had told.