posted on Aug, 9 2007 @ 02:30 PM
I had some down times in my past as well ... it does seem to influence writing/poetry. The only one I sent to the school paper, under a pen name,
was poem of the month the last issue of my senior year of which I wrote a couple years prior.
While my writing was driven by sadness and desperation in a way, it also had the hint of desire for love as well. After making it through that period
and meeting a girl and first engagement ... I had a hard time writing much more than a short love poem for my love.
After losing her ... I actually didn't find much comfort in writing anymore, and had just now after many years gotten back ready to write, with a
clean slate. I still don't find it as easy as before, when the words seemed to flow like water or tears ... but, in finding my inner
child/innocence again ... I found I can write new and different than ever before ... with a new hope.
Through depression or without ... I have always enjoyed deep contemplation on things, usually in a very idealistic way. I envision(ed) the world as
a peaceful, non-monetary based society, working together for the happiness of each other ... I contemplate on the universe, the galaxies, many
'extra-terrestrial' things. As a child I figured light as mass, and can affect things such as sound, but on a very minute level (before I learned
about wavelengths and such) ... and it light can be bent by gravity and affected by magnetism ... then I was right, at least to a certain extent,
but school doesn't lend to such abstract thoughts well, and I don't fathom as many strange possibilities as much as I did pre-K.
Our minds are very powerful. When we let go of all the things we are forced to learn, and just let our thought go into the unknown, without any
pre-conceived laws/rules ... we tap into something that I think most inventors, theorists have managed to find. It is easy to lose touch with this
side of ourselves, since our world is full of distraction and so-called 'rules'.
I believe the reason people that are in dire emotional situations can sometimes have revelations is because out of the complete disabling stress and
desperation, they lose the brainwashing of today's society and can for a moment see the purity of life. It is great that this can save people from
destroying themselves, and it is a shame most lose the mental progress afterwards. We would all be better off if we could look at things from a less
selfish perspective of existence.
Even though you had lost those thoughts, doesn't mean they are gone forever. Take time without tv, radio/music, and just spend time with yourself.
Don't force it, just let your mind drift away. You may get it back ... if not, at least you are still around to try, I believe with enough
relaxation and letting go of the mainstream perception of reality, we all can have our own epiphany. I hope no one ever falls into a self-destructive