posted on Jul, 17 2007 @ 12:35 AM
I've been lucid dreaming for about the last 15 years. I don't work as hard as I used to, since waking life seems to require a bit more attention as
I get married and focus on my career.
When I first learned lucid dreaming, I used it to control and effectively put an end to nightmares I had since I was a kid. It worked like a charm
and I quickly began to have fun with it. In high school I had a dream about a girl i had a crush on for two years. I asked her to talk about the
weather with me the next day at school if she remembered this dream. The next day she spoke with me (a first), and asked if i thought it was a nice
day. After we started dating, she told me about this dream she had about me...
I used to have dreams quite often about another girlfriend from high school. She was a pen pal and lived in California as I lived in Wisconsin, but
we were very close nonetheless. She killed herself when I was 17. For years after i dreamed of her at least once a week. We were always holding hands
and no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't see her face. Only her hand in mine, or her feet shuffling along as we walked.
One dream i had which was not lucid at first was that my mom bought a haunted house. I kept seeing something gliding down the hallway past my bedroom
door. I finally caught it at the top of the stairs one day. It was a teenage girl in a 50's era gown. She said she was waiting for her date to pick
her up. I talked with her a moment, then something changed in her eye. I became immediately aware that 1) i was dreaming, and 2) the girl was
Jacqueline, my ex. I said "Jacqueline?" and she said "I love you, Nathan" and glided down the stairs.
Since that dream things got a bit different. I had moved to Salt Lake City and was living with a great girlfriend/roomate. I began to have
difficulty waking up. Where controlling myself in my dreams had become second nature, actually waking up was in itself a task. I'd lay there with
my eyes closed, moving my head back and forth about an inch, slowly, grunting as i tried to move.
I began to experience things in waking life as well. One such event was at Memory Grove park in Salt Lake City. We were back in the depths of the
park where it becomes thick with tree's, good for hiking. It was night but the moon lit up the sky. We came across a courtyard with some crumbled
corners where an old small house had been. There was a journal laying on one of the stones and my girlfriend read from it. Depressing things, a lot
of things about God, praying, not being able to sleep, etc. At one point i closed my eyes and could suddenly see the park below me as though i were
flying over it. I felt rushed at first, but the feeling quickly got darker and i felt the immediate need to have everyone in the courtyard, and not
near the tree's or the hiking path. It was like i could see all of my friends and everything in front of me, but i could also see them and myself
from above. I felt it swoop down over us and circle up again. I freaked out and high-tailed it ouf of the back woods. We went back to that park
many times, but that was the last time i ever went back into the woods.
I've also had sudden moments before sleeping (relaxing, eyes closed) where everything tenses up and i'm flooded wih an onslaught Jacqueline, the ex
girlfriend who killed herself years ago.
Most of these things have since died down, and while i find them all intensely interesting, some of them i can do without. I had one out of body
experience where i felt like i lost control and was beginning to float away from my own body against my will. Now i just go to sleep, remember all of
my dreams, and am lucid in only about half.
I guess my questions go deeper than regular lucid dreaming. Has anyone experienced an increase in paranormal activity since becomming a lucid
dreamer? How about different outlooks on daily life, reality, existence? I've seen books about entire different worlds in the dreaming world
(Carlos Castaneda?), dream warriors and the like but if that's possible, i never got that far.
Consciousness, dreaming and how our minds interact with physical reality on the quantum scale fascinates me. Has anyone noticed any interesting
correlations or observations since becomming a lucid dreamer?