posted on Jan, 8 2004 @ 09:01 AM
I moved into my cousin's house (they moved) about a month ago and I became paranoid with the thought of someone being in the house or more like
breaking into the house. It's probably because I used to live with my parents and then I moved out into an apartment in a very good neighborhood.
Now, I'm in a neighborhood that's fairly ok, but I would feel much better if it was someplace else. Anyways, it's just my fiance and I in this two
story house and I keep having these feelings that I'm not safe. It can't be the fact that I keep worrying about bad stuff happening to us because of
the neighborhood, but because I keep thinking there's someone or something in there with us. For example, everytime I go downstairs I keep looking
towards the sofa. And I have this feeling that I have to check the basement to see if something is there before I go to bed. If I'm up in the my
office I keep the door open and once in a while I would peek out and look at the empty hallway which has the stairs leading downstairs directly facing
me. Occasionally I would hear something, but it might be the radiator or the foundation of the house or something like that. It's funny because if
I'm watching tv downstairs I would hear the lamp behind me moving or something. It's always that lamp. I havent seen anything out of the ordinary,
but it's a weird feeling. When I occasionally wake up in the middle of the night I stare at the bedroom door. We always leave it open and I have a
feeling someone or something is watching us.
My parents (being asian and are very religious) believe in guardian angels. When I was younger they would tell us "angels' were watching over our
house and there was one living with us. I sort of believe in it, but I really didn't experience anything weird as I do now in my cousin's house. One
day I had smell a strong fragrance near this spot near the kitchen (this is in my cousin's house). On the wall hangs this "shrine" if you will
where there's inscense that occasionally gets burned when you "call out" the spirits of your family members. Well, this had happened on December
27th when there was like a gathering of people in the house. i recall my cousin calling out her uncle and grandparents (it's a tradition when you
have special occasions). Anyways, about a week later I smell this strong perfume near the basement door because the "shrine" is about 4 feet away
hanging on the wall. Now, the inscence had already burnt out for a while, so that can't be it because I would ONLY smell it at that place. I checked
again last night and I can no longer smell it. And it can't be the inscence cuz i was smelling something like perfume, and i know what inscence
You can all tell me it's because I have to get used to my new surroundings, but there's more. My mom has dreams where if she broke a tooth she knew
right away someone she knew died. Well at first I was skeptic, but everytime she has this dream, within a few days she would hear news of someone
dying, wether it's a friend or a friend of a friend. So, occasionally I've had thoughts of something happening. Sort of like, "wouldn't it be cool
or what would happen if ..." Then maybe moments or hours later it would actually come true. It would only happen if it were a spur of the moment
thing. Like, if I were to sit at a traffic light and thought of seeing a cop drive by with his sirens on or something it would happen minutes later.
This has happened numerous times and it kind of scares me. Why? Because if I were to sit here and all of a sudden I thought of soemthing happening to
me I'm afraid it would actually come true. Sort of like wishful thinking in a way.
Anyways, funny I'm typing this message and all of a sudden a printout of tinkerbell came out on my co-workers computer. His computer is NOT networked
to the network and no he wasn't viewing any of her pictures. We just came back into the office and once he logged back into his computer and started
viewing his emails the printout came out. I'm going to track down what happened. Am I paranoid? I dont' know. maybe I have a gift.